Liz1969

Hi, I’m really sorry to read the reason you are here on the forum, there are loads of lovely people on here who will help you, but thought I would reach out to you.

My experience of the breast clinic was similar to yours, mammogram, Ultra sound and biopsy, and they also said that it was highly likely it was BC. However they can’t confirm this until they have the biopsy results. Unfortunately in my case it was confirmed. 

It’s completely ok for you and your husband to feel the way you do. My husband and I felt that it was quite a brutal way of telling us what was happening, but in hindsight it was much better for them to be completely honest about their concerns. 

Have you been allocated a breast care nurse? Mine has been wonderful and a great person to download to and talk through some of the potential realities of what’s going on.

Some advice from the forum really helped me...don’t google anything, and I haven’t done. Use the information available through this forum and your breast care nurse.

I sincerely hope it isn’t breast cancer, but if it is then we are all here with you every step of the way. 

Big hugs, take care

WL

Hello 

Thanks for replying. And I am sorry youre here too. No I dont have a nurse yet. I guess that happens when the results come back from the biopsy (?) They gave me a leaflet for a breast nurse tel number. 

The consultant who did the ultrasound and biopsy kept saying "Its nothing we cant treat" but it all felt like platitudes... "treat" does not mean "cure" I am angry scared 

I felt envious because they get to go home and watch TV and laugh and life goes on as normal for them, its just a job to them. Sorry Im bitter at the moment. 

I started HRT 6 months ago having an awful time physically and mentally with perimenopause/menopause so I just did not need this. .....No one does, I know.  

I am still telling myself  "They cant be so sure just from images"  but I know Im fooling myself.

I keep seeing people coming here like me and posting just once after their biopsy then there is no other posts or replies its like they vanished so I wonder if their biospies were not cancer so they never came back here.

A friend told me not to get my hopes up but her work collegue was told the same thing so she cancelled a cruise they had planned for her 50th and kept vomiting from the anxiety all week while at work and after all of that the biopsy was nothing. 

I thought this was a cyst or a fibroid but the consultant said it was not a cyst and it was not a fibroid. So it can only be a tumour. 

Sorry my heads in a spin 

hey

No need to apologise. I understand how you are feeling. I have 2 children aged 7 and 9, and all I could think of was it’s not fair, on mother day had convinced myself it was my last one, I couldn’t understand why people were complaining about really insignificant things.  I’ve sobbed so hard no more tears could come out. All of the emotion is normal, it’s a scary time and you don’t yet have all the answers. 

I’m 43 and my mum had breast cancer when she was 45, 17 years ago. And she is here with me looking after me as I recover from an appendix removal. And there are lots of other women on here with their own stories of how they have come through this. And if it is breast cancer you will too. 

Maybe give the number a call you were given and ask who your breast nurse will be , I was given mine before I got any results. 

Always here if you want a rant or a download. Sending you a big hug.

X 

Hi, welcome to the forum no one wants to join. There are many of us breast lasses on here, and I know more will pop along when they get a chance...

Although I know it all seems pretty harsh the way you've been told, I can't help thinking it's better than my experience...all the way along I was told mine was a fibroadenoma, nothing to worry about .....well....I think you can guess the rest....fast forward to biopsy...grade 2 invasive ductal carcinoma! Although I also can't help thinking they shouldn't commit either way as they can't be certain until the biopsy results are in...

I know everyone will say the waiting is the worse part...and it is! @woollylamb is spot on, don't be googling anything, it will drive you nuts....the only way I could cope is day by day.....not looking too far ahead....just deal with what's in front of you..now.

Its still 50/50 for you, don't be writing yourself off, and if it is cancer? Well, believe it or not ( after the tears and tantrums....which I'm still prone to now) you will be able to get through it, when there's a treatment plan in place....you really do crack on with it. It's all so raw right now, your left dangling....no answers.....but be patient.....you will soon know what it is....then you can make plans....

lets us know how you get on? Your amongst friends who totally understand how you're feeling xxx

Hi

I have just been diagnosed(on Wednesday this week) with BC 6mm stage 1 confirmation after a mastectomy in the next few weeks oestrogen positive.No lymph spread so far noted.Found by routine mammogram.Two weeks of hell waiting for biopsy after two worrying lumps.(1 was a cyst)

I had BC at 29 years old (I am now 57 )had a lumpectomy radiotherapy and chemo.

I will be on hormone therapy for 10 years.

i was in shock but after a couple of days I’m back to fighting mode.*** off I have it again it’s bad luck not a recurrence.

My husband wasn’t coping well and my two teenage daughters are going through university and school

exams so wasn’t best timing.They are fine now it’s clear the plan ahead and I’m not going to leave them

quite yet.

Good Luck stay strong you’ve been here before and like me young st the time have fought through it

x

Hello, 

I had something similar happen to me. 

I came on here too thinking surely they cannot tell from an ultra sound and mamogram. 

I was told 5/5 I have cancer. I do and when it was confirmed by the biopsy I was numb, didn't cry til next day, then cried for three days.

I'm starting chemo in three weeks and I've put it to the back of my mind now, I'm just back to work and trying not to think about it. 

Keep yourself super super busy, that's all I can say. 

I still haven't googled much about mine, not sure what is find so I'm not bothering. Noone has said any % to me, and I'm scared to ask.

I hope this week goes as quickly as possible so you get your results. 

Take care x

Thanks for the time and consideration. I appreciate it

I am not "handling it" well at all. My basic nature is to worry and think the absolute worst. Ironically I did not worry about this at all or much, I was confident it was a cyst or a fibroid with a 0.5% anxiety of the big C, 

I was and am going through the transition from perimenopause to actual menopause and its been so very hard mentally and physically the last 6 months,  its actually already been the worst six months of my life so I can't believe this is happening now. I feel like I am being punished. 

I know I dont even know what I am dealing with yet but I know its cancer. I have no denial about it. 

I am so depressed with existing anxiety and depression linked to my wildly fluctuating hormones and that makes "this" harder to cope with mentially and emotionally. 

I want to be able to look behind me and know I came through it but I can't. I have windows were I accept or forget enough but I am crying a lot my eyes are puffed up and baggy.

Food is hard to eat despite my hormonal hunger. It feels like dry cardboard in my mouth and I can only eat wet foods.

Im not coping very well at all. 

Hello Liz

So sorry you are feeling so down.

Waiting for the results are the worst thing, your feelings are the same as mine were the two weeks I waited it felt like 100 years 

I had been told one lump after the US was really worrying the other lump not so, I knew he meant cancer and the biopsies were taken and correct.But you hear stories of this prognosis and the results turn out negative and vice versa.

I went from it being a mistake to being terminal, it’s natural because your mind automatically goes into overdrive, and think the worst.

Every day drags waiting for the DDay and when you get there you don’t want to go in.I though I was going to faint when I got there on Wednesday I felt so sick.

Its easy to say stay busy but I personally tried to fill in time by doing anything that occupied my head.I had my two teenage daughters in the midst of big exams at university and school so I had to put on a face too, I didn’t want them to worry although they knew the problem.

Maybe speaking to a Macmillan nurse may help or your doctor sometimes helps if you don’t know them you can let it all out without emotional ties.

Thanks for your reply. :)

Yes I have just had a wobble thinking "What if its stage 4!!! and been growing for a year!' ( I had a mamo in Summer 2017) because its quite deep apparently so what I can feel is not the lump its flesh and stuff thats being pushed up by the lump which they told me was 2cm... 

Im kind of wanting to dive into the posts here and learn but im scared to do that too,,, Im scared so very very very scared and full of PMS too which doesnt help, my sleep is bad im hungry but food feels like cardboard 

How are you now? 

Hi, I can completely understand how you are feeling. I was diagnosed 5 weeks ago, after having a clear mammagram in September 2018, 6 months later I am diagnosed with invasive ductal cancer and and have to have a mastectomy on Monday. I also have to have a sentenial nde biopsy to see if it is spreading. The fear is awful, but over the last two weeks I have managed to eat a bit more as didn’t really eat much for nearly 3 weeks, however we need to to aid recovery. I have a 9 year old with Down Syndrome , he only has me, so I have to get better . As much as I am terrified of a Monday and beyond, we will all get through this. I wish you all the best xx