A new kind of scared

I don’t quite know where to start. 

After a few back and forth at the GP’s, I was sent for a skin biopsy. I’ve had lesions on my arms and legs essentially. The dermatologist indicated I should have been sent sooner (!) and also asked that I get blood tests done. So 10 tubes or so later, the blood results come back and we are clear.

The next day, the dermatologist calls me to say there are cancer markers in the lymphoids, he is sorry, let’s refer you he says and a plan should be in place in 2 weeks. At least, that’s vaguely what I recall. I think the shock of the news has left me with a large bag of multiple emotions and a bit of memory loss! That was yesterday.

I’ve been researching on the internet to understand better what it all means, what i’m dealing with, if i’m going to survive this, etc. At home, I get “you’re going to be fine” and I see the terror of the prognosis in their eyes, so I smile and agrees, “yes let’s win this battle.” And I just feel so tired.

  • Hi there,

    Sorry you've found yourself joining us on here but welcome.  Your head must be spinning at the moment, and I think you've probably already picked up on the most useful tip for your current situation, which is to take someone with you to appointments.  The minute the C word is mentioned we all forget a load of what comes after it, it's normal.

    So I won't say too much just now, other than that I know you'll find lots of great support on here, but the initial thing to take note of is take someone with you to each and every appointment, a second set of ears is invaluable, especially in the early days of diagnosis.

    Best wishes,

    LJ