I have lost both of my parents and several relatives and close friends to cancer and have had 2 bouts of breast cancer myself in the past 9 years. I am glad to hear that you are a little more chilled now. Don't worry about your emotions. We can all experience a plethora of emotions in the matter of a few minutes. Many of us cry a lot at this stage too - yes men, as well as women! If you find yourself doing this don't worry about it, as this is a great stress reliever.
Can you talk to your wife about how you feel? It is so much easier to cope with all this if you can talk openly to someone as you go along.
When my mum died 21 years ago, cancer was a death sentence. I cannot express just how much better my care has been since I was diagnosed. This is all thanks to our friends at Cancer Research and, elsewhere who are constantly researching how to achieve better results with cancer. Many people now live with cancer, rather than dying with it and, you will always find plenty of support on this forum.
Don't worry about your reaction to the possibility of a diagnosis. It is a scary time, what with so many unknowns and, we tend to only consider the impact on ourselves, not on others. The more positive you can feel about this, the better it will be for you.
Where are you with diagnosis? Have you had any tests yet? You will find life a little easier, once you know exactly what you are dealing with and start treatment.
Jolamine is very good at helping people with things like this.
Thought I'd just tell you my story. I was diagnosed Feb 2016 prostate gone to lymph nodes, spine, ribs, pelvis and a lung, treatment is classed as palliative care. So i live with my uninvited guest. I thought about what to do and decided to be positive because I'm looking after my disabled wife she needs 24 /7 care she has Alzheimers and parkinsons plus other problems and i promised to look after her when we got old or she wouldn't have married her because she nearly 14 years older than me..
