It is so hard understanding what I am feeling. I am so depressed waiting for the rest of the test to be done, I just want this to be over with and begin my treatments. I feel like a yo-yo going back and forth from the hospital. My moods are up and down. One minute I am happy the next minute I am crying. I can't eat much because my tummy is upset. I can't focus on one thing.  

Hello White Angel, just want to echo what Harry2 has said - most of us have been where you are right now, but once all these tests are done you will be in a better position to face what has to be done.  The good thing is that they seem to pulling out all the stops and quickly, so they can find the best possible treatment.  

Thinking of you, I do know what that black place is like when first diagnosed.

Hazel xx

hi white angel 1 I hope u dont mind me saying but you are a double off my younger sister iv hade to phone my othere sister to check your pic because I thought it was her  I will light a candle for you at church and will keep you in my prayers  ive just had biopseys done an know iv been told i have  a referal dont understand whot this means i am due to see my gp tomorrow 

Hi White Angel

I can totally relate to yoiur earlier comments about mood swings. I also know thge feeling about wanting treatment to start. Having had pleurisy in April and a follow up CT Scan in July, I received a call 6 days later to say they had found abnormalities in both lungs. I had the urgent referral, tests and saw the medics and surgeon. I was diagnosed with lung cancer, never havung smoked I was totally bowled over by this. They seem to think tgey may have caught it early?. Just had one operamtion which involved removing my bottom right lobe. Due to have another operation in respect of top leftblobe. Tgen some smaller nodules in other lobes to deal with. Even though its a worrying time there are fabulous surgeins around who know their job. I got to see the surgeon again soon. Just occassionally you have these waves of emotions and feel down, want to scream and feel sorry for myself. I know this doe!snt help. I wish you all the best with your treatment you will be in my prasyers. Take Care

Hi

I totally understand where you are coming from . My lovely partner of 15 years has recently been diagnosed with Liver cancer aswell as cirrhosis of the liver and more recently stage 2 cancer in his voice box . I am beside myself with worry .

He has just had surgery on his throat and we are awaiting the results of that .

So much to take in . His liver treatment is on hold until until his throat is sorted.

Thinking of you

Love Angie xx

Hi White Angel,

I am sorry that I haven’t replied to you for a while. I have been on holiday and had no Wi Fi access.

I am glad to see that you have had all your tests done now. Are you having surgery before radiotherapy? If so, I presume that this is behind you now. Have you started your radiotherapy yet and, if so, how’s it going?

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx