2 weeks ago my Dad was at the bank and fainted. I received the call from the ambulance and I met him there at the hospital. After a few hours in hospital, blood tests were done and they found out he had anaemia which was quite uncommon for a 59 year old man.
A few days later, he has a colonoscopy and results showed that he has colorectal bowel cancer which had spread to 40% of his liver. The oncologist has suggested chemotherapy and he is now undergoing his 2nd treatment.
Dad is the rock to our family, myself 27 and my brother 29 and my mum. He has always done everything for us and we've all taken this news as such a shock as anyone would imagine. Just 2 weeks before my dad was diagnosed, my brother tried to take his own life.. and now dealing with this, I am worried how he is going to cope.
My family and I are not very familiar with cancer and we don't know what to expect from all this and are so so scared to lose dad!
Dad is trying to stay positive and is quite religious and keeps reassuring us that he's going to get through it and that everything is going to be ok. But the oncologist has told us to keep in the back of our minds that he may die.
Im so confused. I want to keep positive too but also want to be realistic about this situation. But being realistic only seems to make dad more frustrated, as if he is in denial.
Im a huge mess at the moment and my anxiety has really flared up this week at work with me being shaken and nervous and my mind is wondering off in all sort s of places.
I'm so scared this is going to get worse and I'll have to leave my job which I love.
I've never posted on any forum before, I'm quite a reserved person about my feelings so I'm hoping this may be some help to me as I am quite lost at this time.
Thank you for understanding.
