Hi Trinny

sorry to hear about your results, I'm not surprised you are feeling sad and don't ever apologise for moaning!!!  Take everything a day at a time, some days you will feel positive and others you really won't.   It's allowed, you are going through hell at the moment but you will get through it.

 I agree with everything Vatch has said, I found this is probably the worst bit because you don't really know what's going to happen.  Being told the plan and then actually going through it are totally different, I also set myself goals.  

I would also say to read Nicolas thread.  I found it really helpful, bl**dy scary and honest, but reading about others going through different stages of similar treatments and that you're not the only one this is happening too is a big help.

xxx

Hi Trinny, 

Just a little note on behalf of the Cancer Chat team to let you know that we're wishing you well for both operations. You're in our thoughts, and we hope your road to recovery is as smooth as it can be. 

All the very best,

Helen 

Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi trinny

i hope all has gone well with your ops

just to let you know we are thinking of you at this time

come back and update us when you can

vatch

Good Morning All

I can't believe it has taken so long for me to feel even partly normal!

it has been an eventful week since my first op! Unfortunately not everything went as to plan as it should. First op on the 9th went on much longer than planned so rather than 5 hours I was under for 8.

woke up with a tracheostomy was not happy and when the consultant did the ward round on the Thursday insisted that he do something about it. What happens next is a blur but from what I was told I started vomiting blood everywhere. Was rushed back to theatre even though I was apparently arguing the whole way there that I wasn't having another op. They found a small bleed which was made worse due to me using blood thinners during pregnancy but the consultant decided he would investigate more and luckily they did because he found a clot on my lung. 

They then decided to keep me sedated for 2 days to recover in ITU but now I am on the mend, I'm not gonna lie I've been low over the last week and have wanted to give up but now I am back to feeling positive. Long way ahead of me and this is by no means over with yet but I'm fighting again

trinny

Hi Trinny

im so glad to hear from you, have been wondering how you were.

sorry to hear you've been through such a rough time but I'm glad to hear you're feeling positive again.  I hope you can feel yourself healing and getting stronger each day.  It will take time but you'll get there. 

Are you home now?  What's the plan going forward?

Sending you a big hug! Xxx

Still not home plan is that I should be discharged Monday or Tuesday. I haven't a clue what the plan is going forward I know the consultant wanted me to have radiotherapy but he hasn't expanded on that yet. 

Right now I feel completely exhausted and overwhelmed by the whole experience. I am going to spend the last few days in hospital relaxing

trinny 

Hi Trinny,

I've been through the same surgery as you've just had, and had follow up radiotherapy and Chemo treatment.  ( three years now)

I'm so pleased your through the surgery now and recovering ok. If you are going to have treatments It will be a tough road, but the staff in oncology are such wonderful people and will support you all the way. You will find the strength to get through and remember we are always here if you have any questions or worries on the way. Try and remain as positive as you can as I really believe it makes so much difference to your recovery time. My very best wishes to you

Carol 

I have just had it confirmed that they want me to have a six week course of radiotherapy. While it's not a complete surprise it does make you feels down because it feels like it's never ending. 

Oh well, I'm sure I will be ready for the fight again in a few days 

trinny

Hi

I'm so sorry to hear your news but on a positive note it's  really quite normal for most to have radiotherapy if any nodes are involved. They need to make sure you get the best possible outcome/cure and get back on with your life.

Keep in touch and good luck with the treatment, it will be over before you know it.  

Carol