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Today I cannot stop crying

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I was diagnosed with breast cancer a week before Xmas. I had cancer removed and 8 lymph nodes 9 days ago and tomorrow I will find out if it's spread. The last 4 weeks have been like a dream, and that am watching this happen to someone else. I don't know how to feel 'this' I feel numb all the time. 

And today I can't stop crying, I just feel so sad.

I wish things could just go back to normal. 

Will I get my power back? And move on with this what ever the out come tomorrow?

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    Hi Sam r  

    Sorry its been a while I hope that talking to others  Like  us is helping

    In some way it do sent take it away but knowing  theirs  a fantastic group of people like us

    It does help I'm a great believer  in saying how you feel and how our mind works in dealing with it

    I've met so many great people on my journèy and being truthful  with each other makes you feel not alone 

    Family to me are very important in helping but talking to you and others like us we understand

    The emotions and fear that we have to deal with 

    Theirs  no easy answers just the strength we can give each other at this point in time

    Take care I'll talk again soon steve

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    Hi groany I've been diagnosed with  mantel cell lymphoma  it's a rare form of non hodgins lymphoma 

    I've  got stage 4 and its aggressive  it effects the lymph  noads  I've  got it in my breast  liver lungs and spleen  anywhere  else would be selfish  of me ha ha I'm very positive and although  my prognosis is not very good  I'll fight it all the way take care I'll talk more soon

  • Offline in reply to SamR

    Hi Sam - well like all of us very up and down, One minute I am strong - next minute I am a crying wreck I dont know personally how i feel, I guess like most of us. Sometimes I cant see beyond today and other times I think I cant alllow myself to think that - One thing I do dtruggle with is all the jargon around treatments -I know there are people who will tell me but I cant ask in case I am so scared by what they tell me ! I hate sundays as I am on my own and too much time to think -

    Anyway Sam - we  all must try and be there for each other - Take care xx Sally

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    Hello Sam I feel for you as I am in exactly your situation, but, with lung cancer!! Like you the emotional roller coaster that we are riding until w get our results is so hard. I had my biopsy on Wednesday last week and hope to have something concrete tomorrow if the results have reached the 'team' who will work out the treatment plan. The days until then seam long and as you say surreal. One day up, one day down. I'm told that once we have a plan in place we will feel better? I'm sure they are right. Many on here have been in our situation. Try and take each day as it comes. All the very best. Carol x x x x

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    Hi Sam,

    Similar story, I was diagnosed on 22nd dec (my birthday!!), had lumpectomy and lymph nodes removed on 31st jan and see surgeon on weds, Im getting emotional about it, worried... It's only natural x

    Good luck with your appointment tomorrow, do you have someone going with you?  You are bound to feel emotional....

    Sending lots of positive thoughts your way, you are stronger than you know xxxx

    PS. Let me know how you get on x

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