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Today I cannot stop crying

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I was diagnosed with breast cancer a week before Xmas. I had cancer removed and 8 lymph nodes 9 days ago and tomorrow I will find out if it's spread. The last 4 weeks have been like a dream, and that am watching this happen to someone else. I don't know how to feel 'this' I feel numb all the time. 

And today I can't stop crying, I just feel so sad.

I wish things could just go back to normal. 

Will I get my power back? And move on with this what ever the out come tomorrow?

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    Hi Sam. Wishing you best wishes tomorrow for your results tomorrow. I will be thinking about you.

    You will get your power back once you know what you are dealing with.

    love and thoughts. Audrey x

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    Hi Sam, I was in your position last August , I had a very similar reaction, shock, scared and constantly crying. But when you get your results and your treatment plan you will feel a bit more control.

    It is a tough rollercoaster of emotions, but it is do-able and this site is excellent for chatting and finding out information.

    I would write down all the questions you want to ask and if possible take someone with you for support and to take in anything you might, to miss when hearing your results.

    I hope all goes well for you tomorrow. Good luck.

    Sending you big hugs.

    Doreen x

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    Hi Sam like yourself  I've not really  accepted  what 

    I've got it is different  from what you have 

    But if there is one thing I have noticed is that how scary and sacred 

    And don't believe its really happening  

    You do find the strength by going on this site shows you're not 

    Hiding from your cancer if like me and many others  you feel lost 

    I've been told my cancer can end my life in three year's  it's rare and incurable 

    But I'm rare Sam like you are its the hardest thing on the planet to keep focused and strong 

    You're  have good and bad days  

    My cancer has never been in a person like me and its going to wish 

    It left me alone  crying and feeling how you do is so nor all

    And to try to be anything  else than true to how you are to me makes it worse 

    Take care Sam my name is Steve I've been diagnosed  with stage 4 mantle  cell lymphoma  aggressive  

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    Hi Sam,

    Reading your post made me wonder how you are going now, I know exactly what you mean regarding the crying and feeling so sad.

    I am struggling a lot at the moment  - was told I have breast cancer back middle of Jan - got another operation to assess if its spead to my lymph nodes etc- I dont know if its the not knowing or worse to know

    I do hope you are managing to see forward - take care Sally

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    Hi Sam Just be strong, I was in your position last year, whatever they throw at you YOU can overcome it. IT's the not knowing that is the worst but think positive. I am sending all my good wishes and thoughts to you xx Take care. Sandy
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    Hi Sam, I was on the exact same position October 2015. You can move on but it is a slow process. May I ask if you've has your results yet? I don't want to say anything unnecessary :) wishing you all the best
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    Hi Stephen. May I ask what type of cancer you have. 

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    Hey Sam, Sorry to hear what you're going through. I've currently got leukemia. Was hoping for the all clear but heard a week ago it's still there. You 100% will get your power back. You will face tomorrow and you will get through it. There is nothing wrong with having a good cry. It's cathartic and sometimes just what we need. When a results day is coming up for me, I like to think how I'll laugh at myself for getting so worried about it all, when I finally get that all clear ;) And if you don't get that result yet, think of all you've been though. How strong you are. And how strong you can be. You've got this! All the luck for you tomorrow. Tanya

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