Hi Caz

Sorry to hear your story.  Fear is the one thing that happens to all of us and you have to find your way of dealing with it. Keeping yourself busy helps I know its not easy.  Talking helps share with your friends and family and if you need a good cry then do it, dont bottle things up.

As to your appointment write down any questions you can think of as they pop into your head, remember no question is stupid.  I hope someone is going with you as two people hearing the same thing can sometimes differ and they could make any notes that you might want to.

Once you start the treatment the regularity and the fact that someone else is in charge gives a sort of calming effect (or did in my case and many others) its like you are on a treadmill.

Best wishes