Feeling low after chemo..

Hi everyone,I've been strong up to now from being told I have cancer in may 2016 to getting chemotherapy (I'm only on my second cycle so far) I've just recovered from it,4 days of hell I will say but I'm back on my feet again now for 3 weeks before the next cycle.

Thing is and I Dont mean to sound soft or a victim but I felt really low yesterday so sad and I cried for the first time, i don't know why? Maybe it's because I'm in isolation due to the chemo,high risk of  infection I've been isolated for 6 weeks now, it's lonely, its quiet,I didn't take my meds yesterday I could not take them I felt too sickly to manage them but  today I am much better and have taken the meds as I'm supposed to do after a good talking to myself!!! 

I just wondered if anyone else has ever felt like that?  Is it the chemo?  I'm not normally a crying type to be honest I was surprised myself at the sadness that came over me? Felt depressed.

Sorry if this doesn't make much sense it's the best I can do.

Thanks for being there everyone!

Best wishes

G

  • Hi Gillian.

    It's good to hear from you although it's not good news your feeling a little down at the moment.

    I can't really comment on how your feeling as i have No diagnosis at the moment. I'm still in the LIMBO stage waiting for appointments etc.

    I do however follow a Blog of someone with the same Diagnosis as yours. She is a doctor and just started Chemo so i think your a little in front of her. You may get comfort from other posts on here or you may take comfort from someone going through the same if you want to follow the blog.

    I'm not good with links but here goes.

    listentoyourbodysite.wordpress.com/

    I get email updates when she posts.

    Hope your feeling better soon and it's just a blip. xxxx

  • Hi! Thanks very much for your reply I will have a look at the link. I'm a bit better today.

    Good luck with your own health and best wishes.

    Gill

  • Hello

    I had chemo three years ago, and I remember  feeling up and down.  I think the emotional side for me was as bad as the treatment.  I tried most days to have a short walk, and plan nice things for the weeks when I felt better. I remember saying to myself, the first ones over, and when I had the second I was nearly halfway through, the next three I felt a bit better as  could see the finish.    

    I went to the Look Good Feel Good session at the local centre, where I was advised on make up, and met other women in the same position.When I felt able, I tried to make sure I went out, even for a ride in the car, this made me feel better.  I think we have to cope with a lot of issues from diagnosis to treatment, it is no wonder most people find it difficult.  

    I am now feeling very well and life is good.  I am sure that you will feel better soon, and know what to expect for the next one.

    Take care and please post if you need any support.   xxxx

     

     

  • Hi Gillian,

    The feelings you have sound pretty normal to me. Think about all the stress and frustration you've experienced over recent weeks and the worry you currently have about whether or not the chemo will work and will have been worth the side effects. No wonder you feel down and emotional.

    It would probably more worrying if you didn't have a cry every so often. 

    I suspect everyone on here who has been down this path before you will have gone through something very similar. I can say that the side effects wear off not long after finishing chemo and if it works the downsides are far outweighed by the positive feelings which follow receiving good news. The worst part for me was the uncertainty of not knowing whether the chemo was doing any good and then waiting around for the post chemo scan and its results. 

    Best wishes

    Dave

  • Thank your for your encouraging words You've been through it and come out the other side I will try to do things I've not been out the house for weeks.

    Thanks again

    Best wishes 

  • Thanks Dave,I feel a bit better today and a bit silly for how I felt yesterday as I'm so different again today in a positive way!

    It's good that we have people on here to talk to I find it helps as I can't talk to my family /friends about it I Don't want to worry them or make them down as well.

    Thanks again for your message.

    Gill

  • Hi Gill,

    That's good news. It has become a bit of a cliché but this really is an emotional roller coaster ride from start to finish!

    Cheers
    Dave

  • Hi Dave,yes your right it is a rollercoaster, I'm alot better today in body and mind I have eaten a meal and well impressed lol it's like I've achieved something today for myself as I've struggled to drink since last Weds&Thursday after chemo never mind eating,so to eat a good old meal was a big thing! :-)

    Thanks again for all your advice and replies.

    All the best to you

    Gill

  • Hi Gillian :)

    glad to hear youre feeling more positive at the mo....as Dave said it would probably be more worrying if you DIDNT have a cry now and again...its natural for your feelings and emotions to be up and down as theres a lot going on with your body ..

    look forward to the days when youre able to do more and get out and about whenever you feel up to it :) good luck!!

     

    Aysia x