My mom was just diagnosed with breast cancer.  I don't know much about her diagnosis other than they found a tumor in her left breast and they went in for a biopsy. The results came back with her tumor being malignant.  This was on Thursday the 15th of April.  I have only cried once.  For me that is a very wierd thing.  I cry at the drop of a hat.  Like literally I'll drop my hat and probably cry.  I have always been an emotional person.  I cant figure out why I havent cried.  I need reassurance that this is normal.  Everything feels like slow motion.  I feel like talking about it is a burden to others.  My boyfriend who is an amazing man and is really worried about me.  I know I haven't processed my mom's diagnosis but I don't know how.  

I am 22 years old. This past easter my mom and I finally made ammends.  We had been on and off fighting for about 3 years.  My mom and I have very different ways of seeing things.  This past easter we finally made up.  My mom is one of my best friends.  I am so glad we ammended things.  Then a couple of weeks later she is diagnosed with Cancer.  I am beating myself up becuase what if we were still fighting.  What if I still treated her like she was an enemy.  I am glad things are better, but now she has cancer and I am beyond lost.  So I do not know why I am writing this forum.  Writing is a therapy for me so here it is. 

signed, 

your confused loving daughter