What will happen to me?

I was diagnosed with cancer of the womb last week. I know that the cancer has spread around my body.

For some months now, when I lay flat on my back, I can feel it below my rib cage, it makes me feel nauseous.

Recently, I have begun to get lower back pain. I am also very tired. For about two years I have had diarrhoea , 

When I eat, I need to go to the loo pretty quickly. The doctor wants to do a hysterectomy but I know it won't end there. I have seen too many of my friends go in to hospital for one thing and come out wrecked. I am not willing to have my body hacked to pieces and to wake from anaesthetic to be told I can no longer pee or poo or eat normally. .    I have contacted dignita as I see it as my best option. Next week I see my solicitor to tweak my will.

I would like to know what drugs are going to help me through this. I have always had a fear of hospital and find it very traumatic to enter one. Last summer I fractured my foot and it took four hours of pain for me to finally agree to go to a&me.When my mother was alive, I passed out taking her for a hospital appointment.

I have no intention of going through with any hospital procedure.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  • Ylil,

    Sorry to hear that you find yourself in this position. I guess we all have to make our own decisions and live with the consequences. Our decisions might change depending on our circumstances, including our age and general well being both physical and mental.

    I could not make the same decision as you and Hyacinth, but part of me can understand why you might make such a decision. 

    Have you discussed your decision with your family and friends? The days and weeks following a cancer diagnosis can be a very lonely place.

    Best wishes
    Dave .

     

  • Hi Dave,

    Not ready to talk to family, son expecting first baby soon and they are totally dependent on me as her mum is on other side of world. I have promised her my full support and I will give it to her. My husband knows and he is accepting of my decision, he knows my feelings and is supportive. You say it can be a lonely pace, maybe I will feel that emotion but at the moment I am feeling strangely calm. I am enjoying every minute of every day and will continue to do so as long as I possibly can.

    Enjoy Monday - I know I will

  • My Mum had a similar condition, she was told it is called white coat syndrome (not that naming it made it any easier). Whenever she was in a room with a doctor her blood pressure and pulse soared. 

    Please don't take this the wrong way, but have you tried counselling for your fears? Mum worried that something bad might happen while she was in hospital (her phobia started after a terrible experience in hospital in labour with me). Somehow she managed to rationalise that worse things would happen to her if she avoided hospital than if she was admitted. 

    Best wishes
    Dave