Hi I am not sure if you will see this message but I am desperate to talk to someone as I am terrified. I had a smear test done on Friday my first one I am 39 I suffer with severe anxiety and depression so always put them off as the fear made me seriously ill. I actually was proud of myself for going on Friday I knew it had to be done as I have children and I've been feeling a little better with my anxiety up until now. They found a mass on my cervix pretty big and they were very concerned they have referred me to a cancer specialist who deals with colonscopy ever since my smear test I have been getting throbbing aching pain in my private area and pelvis I also suffer with watery discharge have done for as long as I can remember. I don't have any bleeding as of yet but I am convinced I have cervical cancer I was finally given the appointment to see to see the specialist on Monday and i am terrified she is going to give me bad news specially with the pain I am dealing with it doesn't sound to promising for me. My mind won't shut off and I am constantly terrified I lost my cousin 3 years ago to cervical cancer so i know what to expect I just want someone who understands to talk to as I feel so alone right now I really hope you you this reply xxx

Hi Sara,

I'm so sorry you are going through this and feeling scared. But you are not alone, there is me and [@Minska]‍  and [@AMF]‍ and many more out there, I'm sure. You are on the right track and doing what is the most important, getting checked out and taking charge of your health. Yes, waiting is the worst part but once you know what's going on you can confront it and make a plan on how to proceed. I feel like no matter what happens, you will be well on your way to managing your health anxieties. You are right to be proud of yourself, now take it one day, one appointment at a time. Keep us posted.

Laura xx

Hi Lisa

I think when there is real concern that there is something badly and obviously wrong, things move pretty quickly in my experience. Your symptoms seem to not be bothering the doctors too much to move at speed, but obviously for your own reassurance you need to get to the bottom of it so if your own doctor doesn’t suggest a referral to a gynaecologist I think it would be worth suggesting it. Hopefully it’s something easily sorted-there are many reasons for bleeding which aren’t cancer. xx

Thank you, that's really helpful. I'll check back in and let you know how I get on Friday. Take care xx

Hi,

In my case it was still treatable and it is my understanding that it involved the cervix and the upper part of the vaginal canal. I did have symptoms but it such an individual thing its hard to compare with others. 

Laura xx

Hi Laura

I keep getting really bad pelvic pain and pain in my private region. I haven't had any bleeding but I suppose not everyone bleeds.

I am super anxious this morning about my appointment tomorrow because the thought of hearing the word cancer is utterly terrifying me and with them finding a mass on my cervix that tells me it's clearly pretty advanced :( 

I went to the family bbq yesterday and it took my mind off if but this morning I feel so bad and so scared I am terrified of leaving my kids behind if I can't fight this or its to far gone to fight it. I was expecting to feel better having this appointment but I feel worse right now because I will know for sure and not sure I can handle the bad news I've barely handled not knowing but the thing is their isn't anything else it could be with the mass and my symptoms so I basically know anyway but I think hearing the word would be completely different for me xx

Hi Sara

Dont write yourself off before you’ve even been to your appointment! It is absolutely horrible to be told you have cancer, there’s no doubt about that, but having cancer isn’t an automatic death sentence, nor is it necessarily untreatable or very advanced. I had a visible tumour on my cervix when diagnosed with cancer in 2018, but I’m still here after treatment. Your fear of the unknown is taking over your mind at the moment and that’s perfectly understandable, but even if you get bad news tomorrow you WILL cope, because we all do. xx

Hi Minska

Thanks so much hun I am just a terrible wreck. So glad to hear you beat cancer I love amazing news like that.

Did you have any symptoms with your mass? And was it the dr who reffered you due to the lump? 

How long was you on treatment for to clear up the cancer? Sorry for all the questions anxious nelly today I just keep seeing the appointment in my head and them telling me it's bad news and the feeling of dread I am going to get when they do specially with having severe health anxiety. 

But you are right it doesn't always mean a death sentence its just my children I worry for they both have needs and depend on me for everything so its all going to be very difficult xx

I honestly don't believe it I have been to the toilet this morning and there was blood when I wiped and discharge the only bit of hope I had was the fact I haven't bled and now this has happened to me and now I have no hope what so ever I keep looking at my kids and feel so sick for them I am utterly terrified xx

Sara, there’s always hope! I was post menopausal and had bleeding so that wasn’t normal but my anxiety kept me from going to the doctor, which was really stupid. When I did go, she referred me to the gynaecologist but she didn’t tell me what she could see, so I wasn’t too worried. Even the gynaecologist didn’t say anything until he got the result of the biopsy back, so again I didn’t have loads of worry. I was scared of course when I was told it was cancer, but I always kept positive. I’ve had a few different treatments since I’ve had this cancer twice, but what I can say is that I’m doing fine now and feeling very well! xx

I am so glad you are doing well hun and you beat it I hope for the same outcome and pray I don't end up the same way my cousin did. I just felt so deflated when I saw the blood this morning and its still happening now ive also got bad right leg upper pain and that is another symptom oh the joys. All I can do is hope and pray to God for my children's sakes but I know what I am going to be told tomorrow I keep trying to prepare myself xx

Let us know how you get on tomorrow Sara and you will get plenty of support on here to deal with anything, if you need it, xx

Let us know how you get on tomorrow Sara and you will get plenty of support on here to deal with anything, if you need it, xx

Thank you so much I really appreciate it I will let you know as soon as I get back xx