Hi AMF,

Great news! I'm glad you are feeling better about things! Yes, definitely keep up with the smears, it is so much easier to deal with anxiety when you see a doctor on a regular basis. Keep me posted on how you are doing. 

Laura xx

Hello Laura,

I'm going through hell at the moment. Waiting for my appointment to get any clarification. I had cervical smear test done and it came up as I might have a cancer. Blood test for ovarian cancer came back with bad news as well on top of everything I found that I have lump in my left brest.. All I do is worry about everything. A year ago I had blood in my urine. For few days but my kidneys seems okay. Because of all this pandemic I could not have any scan or check up. In last few months I keep bleeding between periods, I feel ill. I'm losing weight. If I eat it just a bit. I feel like my life going only worse and worse. I'm pushing away on my loved once. Because all I do is cry. Me and my partner argue a lot. And I blame myself for it because the state I am in. Yesterday I spend all day in hospital with bad chest pain. I got 2 injection and they let me out. I decided to find people who going through something similar or already are in good place. Last night I had suicidal thoughts and that scared me. I felt I would be better for every one... Im only 32. I'm trying to be positive I'm going to work as normal. I cannot manage mentally anymore everything is just gone beyond my control. I keep pushing my GP all I heard I called hospital someone will go back to me in 7 days. I'm glad you are feeling better and you gone stronger xx

Cookie. 

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time at the moment Cookie and that it's starting to impact on your mental health. I do hope the thoughts you had were fleeting but if these do pop up again do try and speak to someone about this, whether it be your partner, close friend or even your GP, as I'm sure they wouldn't want you to be feeling this way and will do all that they can to help.

The mental health charity, Mind, have some very handy information on coping with such thoughts just here and the Samartians are available to listen and offer support 24 hours a day, 7 days a week on 116 123. The NHS Every Mind Matters website has a lot of guidance and advice you may find useful for managing your mental health as well.

Our community know how difficult situations like this can be so I'm sure they will offer their support to you soon but in the meantime, I hope the links I have provided will help and things start to improve soon.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Hi Cookie,

Sorry I'm just now responding to your post. It is so important to talk to someone about what you are going through! I got into therapy after my diagnosis and after treatment was done and it made all the dfference. I learned coping skills and that a lot of people have the same fears about their health. When you are worrying all the time it really takes a toll on you mentally and physcially. I hope you are feeling better soon and get the help you need, you're worth it! Taking charge of your health is so empowering and helps get rid of that nagging health anxiety issue. 

Keep us posted on how you are doing.

Laura xx

Hi Laura,

Got my biopsy results and unfortunately it is cervical cancer not a fibroid. Consultant said its not in the usual place that's why she said my cervix was clear. 3 week wait until scans etc. I am terrified

Hi,

Don't be terrified. You can do this, you can handle the treatement, whatever it is. I had chemo and  radiation and I didn't lose my hair. I was tired but able to function. 3 weeks is not too long to wait for scans, 3 years would be! If you are able to get into therapy now, do it. It is so helpful to talk about your fears and have a 3rd parrty help you put things into perspective. Remember, take it one day, one appointment at a time!  I'm rooting for you, girl, you got this! Keep me posted.

Laura xx

Thanks Laura,

Yesterday was a very bad day had to tell my children (28 & 24) my daughter spent most of the day crying and my son is just in shock. Today I have to tell my parents (96 & 88) it is going to be awful for them. Physically I feel OK although have some lower back pain which worries me, mentally not so good but I know I need to take a few days and let it all sink in its a lot to deal with. As you say I can get through this I have a fantastic family and lots of great friends and for that I am truly grateful. 

Once again thanks for your kind words x

Hi , I'm in the same situation as you at the moment was told on the 28th after a biopsy that it's highly likely cervical cancer . Got assigned a support worker and nurse and given a lot of info to read . Waiting for an MRI which is terrifying I can't help but feel it's the worst case scenario although I'm trying to be positive . I have felt okay just get tired quicker than I used to and a bit of back pain . I have had bleeding and some stomach cramps this week so hoping I get my scan soon .  Take care                                                                                                            Laura 

Did u have a virginal ultersound love