Thanks xx had op on Tuesday, I don't feel too bad although have somehow got a urine infection which is a little uncomfortable! The op went fine, doesn't look like it is in my lymph nodes as far as they know which is great news

Have you heard when you're going back in? Hope it's not too long xxx

Hi Fabia, you shouldn't feel like a fraud for feeling emotional. Being told you had a lump no doubt made you think lots of things that milled round in your head, like 'why me?' and 'I don't meet the criteria of those risk factors' and 'what's it going to feel like?' etc. I'm glad you called the Macmillan nurse. The Macmillan website is great for info, too and they aalso do a series of little booklets that can be found in a library.   Althoughh it may not feel positive, having a date for surgery for two weeks' time is really good. Someone else (sorry, can't remember post name) wrote about the waiting so until your surgery , treat yourself to bits and bobs.  As the Macmillan nurse said they think they've got it early, that is positive,though any lump doesn't feel positive. Take good care. 

Been thinking of you. Good news about lymphs. I go in tomorrow feeling a bit flat and fed up but hubby is being great if not a bit dismissive but fingers crossed I won't be as bruised and I will be up in no time x 

Hi Fabia ,I was diagnosed with breast cancer nearly a year ago,2 operations chemo and radiotheraphy, I'm looking forward to going back to work next weeklight duties at first, the year had flown by, it's been a long journey, but stay positive you'll be fine, it's the not knowing that is more scary , I kept a diary which I wrote in every day , looking back now it seems a blur,

Your hubby sounds just like mine! Good luck for tomorrow, will be thinking about you, please let me know how you get on xx 

Hi Fabia after a long wait in day surgery I got home at 8 last night! Feel a lot better this time up and about much quicker. Breast sore obviously and looks ok to me! Had a mini melt down on breast care nurse ....think I'm just so bloody angry that everyone else is carrying on like I've has a tooth out and not cancer. I haven't got time for this inconvenience I've got a toddler a teenager in last year of school who needs me a busy job etc and I can't crack on with Xmas lol! I know I'm lucky etc etc but feeling thoroughly hacked off. Thinking positively is not on the cards today I am moping feeling sorry for myself .  Hope you're feeling better and not too sore and haven't caught my misery guts !!!!! Rant over

So nice to hear from you, I was thinking if you yesterday. I felt like that yesterday, although I'm recovering fine from the op, I wasn't really ready for the emotional side. You're right, we are lucky compared to some posts you read but we still have to go through the same process. I don't get my results till next week but have convinced myself all will be fine

Hope you feel better a bit later, take it easy today, hugs to you xxx

Hope you don't mind me joining in your conversation.  I'm 54 with 2 married daughters and 1 beautiful 2 year old grandaughter and work full time. After a routine mammagram with no obvious symptoms I had a lumpectomy & lymph nodes removed in May then had to have a further lumpectomy as there wasn't a healthy margin & I found myself comforting another lady while we were waiting even though I'm still on this damned cancer rollercoaster!

It wasn't as bad the 2nd time and I had my 4th cycle of chemo last Thursday, which isn't very nice but not as bad as I thought it was going to be.  I'm not enjoyng losing my hair, I've been using the cold cap which has kept it in a bit longer I think.  As it is I've got a bald stripe at the top but the back isn't too bad yet so I'm just wearing a scarf like a headband, although I did get it cut from a bob to short before chemo started.

It is hard on our husbands, like mine says although he's there for me he can't actually do anything to make it all better and I don't think other people realise what they're going through.

I feel like my life is on pause at the moment, but I'm not going to let it get me down too much.  I've been going to work in between chemos. I have treatment on a Thursday then have the following week off, then go to work part time until the next one.  My employers have been absolutely brilliant and let me come and go as I please depending how I feel on the day.

The thing is, I think we all need some time to be normal rather than the cancer patient, so that's what I try to do in between treatment/appointments even though sometimes I just want to sit in a corner and scream and cry and ask why me???

I've started my Christmas shopping although I'm not sure where we'll be having Christmas dinner.  Chemo due to finish Nov 19th then got 3 weeks of radiotherapy not sure how soon that will start - so maybe xmas lunch at the hospital lol! Then I've got to have injections for a year starting on cycle 5, something else to look forward to.

Let's stick together and not let this cancer get us down!! Now then, is it too early for a glass of wine??

Take care everyone, hope all your treatments go well. Rant over, thank you :)



 

Hi All, these posts are lovely to read in a weird sort of way!  I am just starting my journey with this crap, I was diagnosed a couple of weeks ago with Grade 2 invasive ductal carcinoma, the full extent I'm yet to find out.  I had an MR scan yesterday and believe I will find out the results on Saturday with my absolute plan.  I'm frightened to death but determined to fight this, I'm 41 have done alsorts of challenges like Total Warrior, Hell Runner, 10k runs etc and know this is my biggest challenge yet albeit a little different from my usual challenges but I'm going to fight this and we all must continue fighting back and sticking together!  It's good to read stories of ladies in a similar position to you experiencing the same 'ups and downs' - Good luck to you all on your jouney xxx