A waiting game

So Friday I went for my results and although I was expecting them to say the Cancer had spread, which it hadn't, I was still shocked as it's a grade 3 which really worries me.

its been a week now since I have been diagnosed with breast cancer and I actually think I'm still in denial. I've been through all the usual emotions but now I'm seem to be a little too calm about it. Does anyone else feel the same?? Maybe the panic will set in when I have my op details through. I have still not told my daughter and I'm dreading it as I know she going to be distraught, she hates in when anyone is I'll.

i have also been getting a lot I'd pains in and around my chest and around my back and shoulder blades this is also worrying me that it has spread, but then I'm in denial again and it's not happening to me.... I think I'm losing the plot!!!!

sorry posted this in the section and won't let me change!!

  • Hi Kim, just wondering how you enjoyed your holiday and how things are going for you?

    Sending best wishes and hugs xx margaret

  • Hi Margaret, hope this finds you well? I'm good thanks and just about to set off for my 5th session of radiotherapy. 

    My holidays were good and most importantly my daughter enjoyed every minute, I'm must say I did struggle slightly with the heat and because we had no air con there was no reprieve but I was very glad I could at least go. 

    So how are things with you Margaret? 

    Kim xx

  • Hi Kim, good to hear from you and so pleased you both enjoyed your holiday. Hope you are doing ok with the radiotherapy?

    i saw the oncologist yesterday, and he wants to start chemo very soon (just waiting for a phone call) so have had to cancel my holiday which has disappointed me rather. I was looking forward to it, but I guess it is better to get well.  The hair loss is bothering me, but at the moment I am trying not to think about it too much.  I just look awful in hats! Oh well. I keep telling myself it is a small price to pay and I will get used to it......

    On a more cheerful note, I have got over the infection at last, and although still lumpy am a lot more comfortable and improving weekly. 

    Take care of yourself Kim, hugs xx 

     

  • Hi Margaret, haven't been on in a while but have been wondering how you are?? I finished my radiotherapy last Thursday and I'm itching like mad now but a small price to pay and I've had no side effects all the way through. I think you must of started your chemo by now so I hope this message finds you in good spirits. 

    Kim xxx

  • Hi, Kim, so pleased your radiotherapy is over and you have come through it more or less unscathed.  Have you got an appointment for your scan yet?  Let us know how you are. x