freaking out a little :s

Ok.... so I found a rather large lump (bout the size of a large grape) in my neck sat just gone, went a bit white as I have never noticed it before? its at the bottom of my cervical node area!?  was at my brothers leaving party (he lives abroad and has been over visiting for my birthday, I just turned 36) had to keep face although panicked as I worked in a maxillofacial surgery department at a hospital for 14 years as a secretary so understand to some point what's going on? Ish..? Anyway, had docs appointment today as its earliest they could fit me in! Docs said its suspect and cancer fast tracked me. Hospital called and earliest they can fit me in is in two weeks... I'm not going to lie.. I'm so frightened right now :( it doesn't seem real :( just needed to vent.. :( 

  • Hi Cat,

    That must of been a scare.

    Until they confirm anything, it could be anything, it does not have to be cancer.

    Try to talk to someone and take your mind off it until then.

    Try not to google, if you can.

    I wish you the best of luck, keep us updated.

  • All in favour of venting.  It is such a shock and life seems suddenly out of control.  I have just had my diagnosis of breast cancer.  I went in for the test results expecting to head straight back to work after the 'all clear' and am still amazed tto find myself here.  Feel annoyed actually, having done all of the 'healthy' things, it feels as though I have stepped into someone else's life by mistake! Fortunately the hospital has moved things along quickly for me.  Can you push to go elsewhere that would deal with it quicker?  Maybe even pay for the first bit if its an option; to hell with principles at this point.  Once you get your test results, I hope all is well but, if not, it is all very quickly dealt with.  You could work on your list of questions in the meantime.