Lymph node swellings, told likely metastatic

Hi… I can t believe I am here and am in total turmoil.

I am 59 and went to drs with firm neck lump. Was told it was a muscle and given muscle relaxant medication to take for 8 days. They didn’t work.  Went back and put on 2ww. Had ultra sound and was told accidentally “I think it is’. Then an immediate FNA was carried out there and then. A week later I got a report in my care saying likely metastasis but inconclusive. Ent said likely a lymphoma or spread from somewhere else.

I was then sent for full body  Pet-ct and head and neck MRI. I have also had a core biopsy.

These tests started 2 and a half months ago. Still no results and no appointment booked going forward.

Going out of my mind.