Hi B, yes it was quiet but good, how about you?

Glad you had a good day  .

Sadly mine not so good .. My 88 year old mum fell so we spent the evening in A & E ,  thankfully she is ok apart from a black eye and a lump on her forhead .

Seems to be.one thing after another at the minute. 

I have my pre op tomorrow and am so scared. The closer Jan 5th gets the worse I.become.. Crying etc etc  , my husband even told me.today I have ruined Christmas  which makes me feel even more alone and.frightened than I was before x

Oh gosh B am so sorry... it's a tough time for you and husbands can get stressed too but don't always know how to deal with it so they say insensitive things, but hope he is lovely in other ways!

Have you thought about calling the help line to talk to them about your fears and tears, they are so very understanding and it sounds as if it might help you. I too am anxious and my heart races each time I think of it. However, once done it's then on the road to recovery, so have bought a set of Ann Cleeves books to keep me from getting bored! What have you planned for your period of recovery?

All the best

Vx

If life feels overwhelming then I can't recommend enough that you ring the help line. I was told after a mastectomy that I wouldn't be able to walk the dog for a couple of weeks at least, just in case she pulls. So having grandchildren around might be too much for you to handle after your op, but do check it out with those who know your circumstances such as your Macmillan nurse. It's important that you look after you! Am sorry you don't have the support of your husband, is there anyone else in your family who is supportive? Please talk to someone in your team so you understand what you can and can't do after your op and what support you might need.

Sleep well, I don't know about you but I sleep a lot more than I used to! Wanted to watch a programme on the TV but fell asleep after tea and missed it! Oh well, maybe I can watch it on catch up! x