Welcome to the Cancer Chat forum letmedie although I'm so sorry to hear about what you have been through over the last 10 weeks.

I can't begin to imagine how difficult this has been for you, but please don't give up. Your family love you and regardless of what they might be feeling or going through right now, I have no doubt that they want you to stay in their lives. They want to look after you and make sure you are o.k, so if you feel comfortable doing so, try to tell them how you feel and let them be the support and anchor you need to continue moving forward on this journey.

Coping with a cancer diagnosis can be extremely difficult but I hope by joining our forum and sharing how you feel has made you realise that you are not alone. I hope you receive some support and advice from some of our members who have contended with similar thoughts and feelings soon but if you feel you are unable to cope or are really struggling with how you feel, please make sure you let your GP and/or medical team know so they can support you.

We also have a team of cancer nurses you can talk to on 0808 800 4040, Monday - Friday between 9a.m - 5p.m but for those times of the day or night when no-one is around, don't hesitate to reach out to the Samaritans on 116 123. They are available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and will listen to you without judgement, so please be assured that you are not alone and there are so many people out there who want to help you through this.

We are here for you, and are sending you all our strength and support at this very difficult and challenging time.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Now that I’ve had the operation I’m just waiting on the results and to see what stage it is at, I have sat down and talked with my wife and if it comes back at stage four I will look at my options for ending my life my way. No pain just slip away in my sleep, why should I suffer and why should my family suffer everyday. I know that the pain of losing someone is hard but as time goes by the pain and sadness will ease, and knowing that I have not suffered in my last few months will be a huge relief for them.

Waiting for your results must be incredibly tough. We are thinking of you and hope the results show that the cancer is treatable if it's found to be in the early stages.

As I mentioned before, you have so much to live for and there are always people you can talk to about how you are feeling, such as the Samaritans, but if you recognise that you are at risk of immediate harm or danger from yourself please contact 999 immediately or ask someone else to do this for you.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator