Head spinning with this wait for my breast biopsy and mammogram results...

Hi, 

I recently found a lump in my right breast and it feels like my world stopped spinning.

I have been lucky to be seen very quickly and had the lump biopsied, as well as my lymph nodes as the doctor said they felt a bit swollen. I also had a mammogram on both breasts. The nurse also really suggested I had someone with me at the results appointment, so I feel we are pretty confident this will be bad news. 

Now, it's the waiting game, and it's petrifying! I'm a 39 year old mother to three young children 9, 6 and 4. And just looking at them makes me want to burst into tears at the thought of me not being here anymore for them. 

What I'm most scared about is that it's spread to my lymph nodes, so it's not localized. And if it's spread to the lymph nodes then also, it could have spread even further

I'm honestly so scared, and terrified I'm not going to see my children grow up. 

Sending lots of love and strength to others out there. 

  • Hello MummyOfThreeLittleMonkeys

    I'm so sorry to hear that you find yourself waiting for breast biopsy results. It's perfectly understandable that you're experiencing a rollercoaster of thoughts and emotions at the moment. I know that many of the members here in the Cancer Chat community will agree that this period of waiting for results is really difficult, and it's natural that our minds wander to all possible outcomes. 

    It sounds like the breast care team has acted quickly to carry out the initial tests needed, and hopefully, you won't have to wait too long for the results. Did they make a follow-up appointment for you or give you an idea of when you may have some news? 

    Waiting for results is a hard time. I'm sure that your little ones keep you busy, but certainly it can help with the waiting to keep yourself occupied and distracted. You might find it helpful to have a look at this thread about how to cope with waiting for news for some tips and advice to support you. If you think it may help to talk things through with one of our nurses, you're most welcome to give them a call. I know they will be happy to listen and offer any advice, information and support they can. If you'd like to talk with them, they're available Monday to Friday 9am to 5pm on 0808 800 4040. 

    I hope that you have support from friends and family that you can lean on as well. Certainly taking someone with you to an appointment can be a great help because it's not uncommon, whatever the results, for people to forget things that are said during the meeting. It can help to write down any questions you have beforehand and perhaps whoever goes with you can jot down answers and information so that you have that with you afterwards. 

    I hope that you have some news soon and that when you see the team, they are able to give you some reassurance about the next steps. Keep in touch and let us know how you get on. 

    Best wishes, 
    Jenn
    Cancer Chat moderator