So, I've had the dreaded appointment and they have confirmed breast cancer. It is large, oestrogen negative, HER2 positive. Grade 3. I've been told that I'm heading towards full mastectomy of left breast with chaemo and other treatment to follow. Strangely was not shaken too much about that. What has rattled me was what then followed. They explained that due to the size and fast growing nature they will do a CT scan next week to check the rest of my body to see if it has spread to my other organs or spine or pelvis. This is what has scared me. The thought of breast cancer I had got my head around. Having it spread to other parts of my body and what that then means has really scared me. Onwards to the next appointment I suppose.