I’m in denial about my cancer diagnosis, It feels like an out of body experience. Has anyone else felt like this?

Morning 

I was called for a routine appointment for my breasts. I got a letter asking me to go back because they were a mass that needed further investigation. I was then diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma stage 3. I’ve since had the lumpectomy and lymph node biopsies for which I will get the results on Thursday. Is it still odd that I still don’t think I have cancer and that it almost feels like an out of body experience. It’s only because I can see my scars that I know I’ve had something done. I have been signed off work since my diagnosis as I had to come off my HRT and I was a complete **** before I found the right dosage. I would have outbursts or randomly cry. So I’ve had my antidepressants increased but my mind still keeps going dark but I’m not sure if that’s because I haven’t accepted my diagnosis.

any suggestions are appreciated 

thank you

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  • I can totally understand this..I do think you block it out of your mind.. every now and then I get a wave of emotion. But feeling that way 24/7 would have a massive effect ..so I think this is why. Its sometimes a very lonely place to be..staying strong because if you show weakness of fear you are met with a barrage of comments about being positive. Usually from people who have never been through it..ive i have found the support I received in February after diagnosis has tailed off..hence why I'm here. Just sometimes an ear without a response is all you want. I totally understand how you feel. I do hope life eventually settles down for you..xx

  • Hi Paintgirl

    I just wanted to join in …..

    Having got up early this morning after sleeping a few hours, I found what you’ve said really comforting. Since I was diagnosed with breast cancer, I’ve been on an emotional rollercoaster. 

    I’m letting my feelings and emotions just happen. 

    If I feel really sad … that’s OK …. and if I feel anything else … that is OK too…

    I hope you feel that you’ve been listened to …

    My Best Wishes X

  • It is all very unpredictable and we live day by day..this is not a normal way of life for me I like to be very structured.. that has all gone out of the window..surrounding yourself with people who understand is the only way forward. Life changing really..but maybe not a bad thing there are some fantastic people out there who are fantastic because they understand...xx

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  • It is all very unpredictable and we live day by day..this is not a normal way of life for me I like to be very structured.. that has all gone out of the window..surrounding yourself with people who understand is the only way forward. Life changing really..but maybe not a bad thing there are some fantastic people out there who are fantastic because they understand...xx

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