Hi Claris,

I have just been told I have basal carcinoma skin cancer. It was a shock as it all happened so damn quick. I am in denial too. I’m fed up aswell. I keep thinking why. I’ve done everything I should to protect myself.  I know I haven’t accepted it either. It’s been taken out from my forehead. I am due to see my surgery next week, yes I am actually seeing someone so I can get more advice. Dermatology did a good job but I was in and out so quick I didn’t have time to ask questions as I never thought it would be cancer. 

Hi Henri

It’s good that dermatology did what they needed to. It is a shock when you find out it’s cancer. 

I’m just waiting for the results back from my second operation for breast cancer. Everything happens so quickly I’m struggling to keep up with it all. My first operation was only three weeks beforehand.

I hope everything goes OK at your appointment next week and you get the chance to ask the questions you want to.

Thanks for your reply. That meant a lot to me.  I feel like I shouldn’t be down because the lump has gone. I feel guilty for feeling this way as there are so many others like yourself that are in a worse position than I am. It must be agony waiting for the results.  I have told myself just one day at a time now, and everything else can wait. I really hope that you have some positive news with your results. Very best of luck to you. I hope you can stay positive. 

Hi again Henri

You’re welcome  

I hope you can get past feeling guilty because cancer is cancer what ever kind it is. I do understand how you feel though. I know there are a lot more people out there who have been diagnosed with more advanced breast cancer than me.

I’m trying to take just one day at a time too.

I already know there is a chance I’ll need a third operation before radiotherapy, but strangely that helps me to be prepared for what might come.

At the moment I’m a bit of an emotional yo-yo !?!! So I’m trying to find at least one thing every day to be completely positive about.

Hoping for the best 

Take care

Yes, it is emotional, I’ve just had a good cry, needed to. Self care is the best. Find something that you enjoy no matter how small. I love to listen to nature, I find birdsong is so therapeutic. I hope you can stay strong and good luck 

Yes, it is emotional, I’ve just had a good cry, needed to. Self care is the best. Find something that you enjoy no matter how small. I love to listen to nature, I find birdsong is so therapeutic. I hope you can stay strong and good luck 

It’s good to have cry … so needed. I do the same. Bird song is so therapeutic. Being in nature is the answer. I love standing under one of the trees in our garden and feeling the breeze.

Thanks for your reply

Hoping to stay strong 

Take care

Thank you Henri

Today there were lots of birds in the garden. It was so lovely to be outdoors in the sun.

Take care

Hello again. I’ve just woken to birdsong. I can hear them outside my window. Don’t feel so good after my mini operation today. Loads of self care today. Oh and rest. I hope you can get rest too and peace of mind which I believe is equally important. I feel as if I’ve been thrown in at the deep end and nothing prepares you. I hope you can enjoy the outdoors.i will be staying out of the sun as much as I can now. 

wishing you all the best

Hi Henri

Birdsong …. what a beautiful sound….               I hope bit by bit you’ll start to feel better….

Having an operation does take it out of you.

Being thrown in at the deep end is a good way to describe what’s happening.

I’ve been standing out doors in the garden under the shade of a tree, with a cup a green tea…. that helps…

Tomorrow I’m going to a hospital appointment to see one of the nurses. It’s to check how the wound is healing.

I’m attempting breathing exercises to keep as calm as possible!?!!

Wishing you all the best 

Take care of yourself 

Yes Henri, sitting in my garden listening to birds is soothing. Staying open to whatever helps is vital

I totally agree. I’ve just ordered a cd with birdsong I could listen all day. This time of year is so lovely. Sadly my Dad recently died, then my Uncle and now I have skin cancer????? But I will keep going, but taking more care of me now and I hope you are too. 

Good luck when you see the nurses. I hope you can keep strong. I’ve just ordered a cd with birdsong I love it. I’ve just recently lost my Dad and Uncle in the last two months and now carcinoma. But I will keep strong, lots of meditation and rest. Good luck to you 

Hi again Henri 

I’m so sorry to hear about your Dad and Uncle …. that’s tough. Loosing loved ones and cancer … that’s just too much …..

I was up early this morning and loved the bird song in the garden.

I hope you’re OK

Take care