Hi Clara

I am doing okay and then I have a meltdown and am scared that the news is going to be really bad. I have to go on Monday now so at least I am being seen a bit sooner which I am grateful for I just hope that they will have all the results by then. I cannot tell you the amount of aches and pains that have developed this week which I am freaking out about that it has spread. This is so hard and everyone keeps telling me I will be okay but it is not that easy when you are not in the situation yourself. That is why I have found this site so helpful. I went out last night to a quiz and it is so hard trying to be normal. 
 

thanks for getting in touch. My name is Nicola if you want to chat again. Merlin is my dog. 
 

I hope you manage to enjoy your weekend.

Masses of ️

Hey Merlin/Nicola,

Thanks for replying. It's just awful isn't it. It doesn't matter what anyone says the fear is real. Glad you are getting to go Monday. I'm on Tuesday and hoping that all my results are back as I had my last biopsy Monday gone. I've been up and down and I'd made a decision I wasn't gonna get worked up but today I feel terrified. Just like you that it's gonna be worst case scenario. I'm sure it won't be though but these thoughts are natural I would imagine. I'm working today but my head is elsewhere. God knows how we've got through these last few weeks. Sending you lots of love Nicola, I know exactly how you feel   xxxx

Hi all you beautiful ladies 

I could not scroll past , I am now fully recovered after my diagnosis and treatment for BC 

I read all your words and honestly I feel them it's exactly how I felt last July the waiting is absolutely terrifying and like you say one day your fine the next you think your dying it's all a process but I want to share that I too was like this but now a few months on your life will soon be back on track exactly how it was before the bump in the road will be gone . 
I feel however that I can't leave this site as ot helps so much and you lovely ladies will be sat here like me telling new members your experiences to try and reassure them 

After my diagnosis I thought my life was over shock days angry days tired days moody days not eating days greedy days it's definitely all part of the package .

but soon you will be free and back to good old days I can promise you that .

good luck to all of you if you need a chat I'm here 

love Lara ️

Thank you Lara, so lovely. That's all any of us want isn't it. To just be free. Xxxx   Your positivity is fab and you are right, a bump in the road, a nuisance. That's all this will be. Xxxx

Clara 

yes it's like you want to press rewind to your old life but how I looked at it was lucky in a unlucky situation lucky it was found lucky it was treated hope that makes sense in a way to you my lovely x ️

Clara

same here I went as my best freind had a BC diagnosis a few months prior I couldn't feel any lump just a heaviness thought it was being paranoid but lucky I went as I'm 48 and wouldn't of had a mammogram for another 2 years and by then it could have been a lot worse x ️

Thank god you went xxx

Hi Jolamine

Thank you so much for your message and reassuring words ️ 

I'm waiting to get the date for the follow up with the surgeon.  I think I may feel a little calmer once that's come through.  The breast centre said the results of the biopsies would be back on 20th Feb, so hopefully soon after that.

I have already started preparing my list of questions ready for the appointment.  My Mum had bowel cancer when I was younger and then breast cancer in 2003 and again 2019. Fortunately treatment was successful for all cases.  She had mastectomies on both occasions for the breast cancers.  Each time I sat in the chair next to her with my little note pad at the ready.  Asking all the right questions and making notes.  Your advice to do this is invaluable.  I'm going to get hand the notebook and pen over to my husband!

Why is it the night seams the worse time for me.  Too much going round in my head.  I'm going to listen to some yoga breathing in bed tonight to see if that helps  

Big hugs 

Sam x

Hi Clara & Nic

I'm pleased for you both that you've got your appointments for next week. Am hoping mine will come through soon as I'm totally with you on the emotional rollercoaster that we are on at the moment.

Sending you both lots of love and positive thoughts ️ 

Sam x