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So very anxious

Becky2374
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I have avoided forums as scared of seeing horror stories, but I am driving myself and probably most of my friends and family mad!

I was diagnosed with bowel cancel in September, had surgery in November to remove a large part of my bowel. Surgery went well and they were pleased with no spread of cancer. I ended up in hospital for 3 weeks as my bowel decided it didn't want to start working again, eventually that got sorted.

A week and a half ago I had my first dose of chemo (Folfox), which wasn't as bad as I had built up in my head the McMillan nurses have been so lovely.

However, since about day 3 after chemo I have found myself a complete emotional mess, I spend most days crying and cannot seem to get past this, I feel scared when I am on my own.  I am a grown woman and have always been independent and able to cope with what life throws at me.

Don't really know why I am posting but thought others may have had a similar feeling!?

  • Hello Becky2374

    I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling at the moment. What you're experiencing is a normal part of many people's journey with cancer. You have been through so much over the past few months and it's understandable that you're feeling emotional and overwhelmed by everything. 

    I know that many people have found it helpful to talk through their thoughts and feelings at times like this and to access support. With the festive period now upon us, many services are closed or limited including our own nurse helpline. However, if you want to talk to someone today the Macmillan support line is open from 8 am to 8 pm and all over the Christmas period. You can find contact details here. 

    I'd really encourage you to talk with the team next time you go for treatment as well. It's possible that there are support services locally that you can access. Alternatively, you may want to get in touch with your local Maggies centre. 

    It can be hard when you're used to being so independent to lean into the emotional discomfort that comes as part of the cancer journey so be kind to yourself Becky.

    The Cancer Chat community and moderation team are here for you. 

    Best wishes, 
    Jenn
    Cancer Chat moderator 

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    Hello I do understand I also felt the same,it is an emotional time with chemo your body is going through a lot,you will feel like that from time to time but it is normal,I had a year of chemo and kept telling myself I can fight all those feelings.I also had radiotherapy,but I would still have gone through it all,try to keep busy reading or watching the tv,just try too keep strong you will get through this.If your appetite goes soup is a good source of food,and if you start too feel a bit sickly try eating mints or ginger biscuits.I wish you well x

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    Hi Fifa

    Thank you for taking the time to reply to my post.

    I really appreciate the advice, I need to get better organised to keep my mind busy.

    Thank you again, and I hope your recovery is going well x

     

     

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