Brilliant, your journey sounds similar to mine and you sound really positive. Really does give me hope! :) I shall email the school thank you, and thank you Lara also for your reply x

Aww likly pops , I have just read the thread so many lovely ladies here , I can give you operation guides but not chemo as mine ain't started yet but as I read through the threads in a few weeks you will be supporting others on here , I feel we are all in this together we can all do it ladies , soon we will be free again and dancing shoes back on xx just a bumpy ride for a little while not forever just remember xx

Hi

I feel like my journey is a week behind yours. Pretty much told it was breast cancer at the appointment last weekend following scan and biopsies and concern it was in my nodes as well. They have got me booked in for mri, mammogram and my meeting with breast surgeon on Monday (so any doubt I had it wasn't breast cancer has gone so at least I am prepared). Just worried how bad it is. I am 37 next week and have 3 babies under 5 so its been a tough old week. 

I hope you don't mind me joining this thread but sounds like we could all support one another on here. 

X

Hi lj 

Of course you can join us!

I really feel for you. Sending hugs!

It's a horrendous mind game with all the waiting and I swear if one more person tells me a story about their uncles, aunties, best friends daughters niece who had stage 4 and "you wouldn't think it to look at her now" then I may go all "Shameless" and start head butting people....

My lump is considerably bigger, the rate its growing is scaring me, it's come from nowhere to now being able to feel it in me without touching it, like how you can feel a watch on your wrist, and my back constantly aches. So I've wound myself up that by the time they scan me - 4th Oct - the window to cure me will be gone...

As I said... the mind plus the waiting... oh what a joy!!

I think the biopsy makes it worse. I never knew there was anything there but now I feel pain its even worse. I have convinced myself its in my lungs until my sensible other half said don't be ridiculous we all habe coughs and colds including the kids. Oh well MRI and mammogram next week. Then the dreaded meeting eith the breast surgeon (like we had any doubt I had bloody cancer and suddenly I am meeting the breast cancer team!).  We are across the country at mil for our nieces christening this week and she can't hold her own *** and when we asked that she hadn't told anyone it turns out she has told everyone she works with, a couple of her friends and my bil and his wife. Like they want that worry the weekend they christen their daughter ffs! Please start headbutting people then I wont feel so bad for doing the same x

The biopsy does seem to bring the fears home. 
 

I have refrained from headbutting anyone yet haha! I hope you enjoy the christening. I'm finding the hard part of people knowing is the constant conversations around cancer when I'm trying not to obsess about it mentally myself however I'll take that as its a reminder that I have people that care and a good support network, much as you didn't want people to know yet they will want to be there for you xx 

Well wish me luck. Today is the day at 3pm I will find out for sure. I have had the mri and mammogram this week. My GP also prescribed something to help me sleep but then terrified me with saying how they can be addictive so have not dared take any. Have been stupid and spent most of my time on google convincing myself the cancer is everywhere and today they are going to say I only have a few months to live. On the plus side I have spent most of my time having fun with my kids and treasuring the memories we make. I have seen 2 rainbows and a shooting star this week so trying to take something good from that. Sorry for the ramble but my head is a shed! 

How are all you amazing ladies doing (I should have led with that!). I hope everything is going well and the urge to headbutt people neber leaves you! 

Lj xx

Good luck 292 big hugs let us no how you get on xxx we are all here for you good or bad xxx 

Scanxiety!! Wow that is what I have. 
 

I first went to my dr in August about my lump and every referral and next stage takes 2 weeks etc, so still waiting.

I finally have my MRI tomorrow and CT scan Thursday. I can feel my lump like a heavy weight on my chest without even having to touch it so I am struggling to switch off and not obsess. I often wake up and cry I am frikkin' terrified of what's ahead. I also have constant burning upper back pain and have ... SCANXIETY!! I am convinced like you are, that my bones are riddled and I'm up *** creek without a paddle.  

Please let us know how you get on! I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you xx

At least we know our fears are normal!! GOOD LUCK XX