Hi lovely. I'm in a similar boat - my mum got diagnosed with breast cancer yesterday. I am experiencing the exact same emotions as you, guilt, loneliness, numb, anger, shock etc. I want the bad feeling to end so much. But we're human. I know I should take my own advice. But don't keep it bottled up, keep talking to people outside your family (friends make a great cup of tea and shoulder to cry on!). If you want to cry it's okay to cry it means you're human. I really hope not only do you spend loads of quality time with your dad making him proud, but please also look after yourself it's so important. Xxx 

Thank you. I'm trying to look after myself, at the moment I'm not sure I can face meeting friends but going to try and have a walk with my husband clear my head a little. The emotions are awful aren't they? So raw, I can be ok for a brief moment then it's like a tidal wave of sorrow and pure pain hits me. I get scared my dad will have weeks not months and it kills me inside.

I hope you are doing ok sounds like your mum is a fighter and you need to hold on to that positivity and keep plodding on, we both now although our journeys are slightly different that there's going to be good days and bad days and I guess we've got to hold on through the bad ones and enjoy the good. Xx

hi struggling good name its how i feel too at the moment just had bad news i have prostate cancer , maybe we can help each other i feel desperate at the moment . so sorry about your father x

I'm sorry to hear that, no doubt like me you're coping with a huge amount of different feelings and emotions and feeling overwhelmed. It's so deeply unfair, I hope we can help each other too x