Hey, new to all this, I found out on Monday that my dad has advanced pancreatic cancer and has approx 6 months left, I knew he was poorly but convinced myself it would be a bile duct stone so the news destroyed me.
I'm trying to stay strong I come from a close family and we are supporting each other but I have this feeling inside all the time of crippling sorrow, my sisters are carrying on as 'normal' like my dad wants but I can't, I don't want to meet friends I don't feel ready and I hate being out seeing the world carrying on not knowing what my beautiful dad is going through, I feel anger when I see older people then my dad who have their lives, then sometimes I go numb and feel guilty for being unable to feel anything? Please tell me it gets easier or more that you can carry the load while life goes forward in a different way? Be grateful to hear from people going through this too sometimes I feel so lonely even though I'm with my family?
