Hi,
Just feeling *** *** off, numb, fed up. Got a diagnosis yesterday and although I'm "OK" around people, it's when I'm on my own (in the car or bath) that I start to feel tearful. I'm very much the "stiff upper lip" brigade and my friends are always telling me to talk rather than bottle things up. I just don't want to burden others.
I know I should concentrate on the positives told to me yesterday "treatable/curable" etc. I'm just confused as to what to do - Consultant has said Breast Conserving surgery with radiotherapy and then did mention mastectomy if needs be. I'm of the mind to just say "whip 'em off".... I've currently only been diagnosed in one breast but I'm very small chested so it won't really make much difference.
Need to tell my mum who is battling her own liver cancer. I know she will want to know but I just can't bear to tell her.
Both children are in the middle of exams (uni and mocks) so will wait until they've done with those.
I know I will play things down to them all as I can't bear for them to worry and I don't deal with sympathy very well.
Urrgghhh....sorry to waffle, just needed to vent somewhere x
Keep calm and carry on xxxx
