My wife was diagnosed with breast cancer Dec 24th 2017 at the young age of 43
we got home and both cried and I told her not to worry about anything and we will get through this . The treatment was successful chemotherapy and radiotherapy. My wife lost her hair which was long and beautiful.
we went out when she had draining bags and for a stupid split second I looked at another woman and my wife caught me . I know this is as selfish and disgusting and I did apologise to her
things then went from bad to worse. We would argue and these arguments were horrible .
my wife wasn't very well and we had argued so I slept on the sofa . I was woken by a phone call from my wife who had walked to the hospital in the pouring rain instead of waking me .
I took the car and she wouldn't get in the . This cause a massive argument . And that's when our world came to end. We sat and talked and I said to her that this ain't love . I don't love you .
don't know why I said this but it broke my wife's heart and I will regret this till the end of my days
we have tried to move on but she has told me that she can't forgive me for this
we still together but when my wife gets sad or angry I go straight into defensive non caring mode
I hate the person that I have become . Before cancer everything as perfect . I'm just an angry non caring person now.
my wife is a stinger better person than I will ever be
sorry
