Hi LisMar

Sounds like you've been through the mill. Scans can bring on anxiety, I've lost count of the amount I've had but remember the anxiety I went through each time. Unfortunately I don't know much about your condition so can't advise but hope someone will be along in the morning who can relate. Fingers crossed scan goes well x

Hello Lismar,

                       Poor you,l have a good understanding of what you are going through at the moment, having been there myself.Those around give you,support and sympathy, but understanding is something you feel they cannot really grasp.No surprise here ,because your mind is currently travelling down a motorway breaking the speed limit, whilst those around you are trying to be normal in a 30 MPH zone.Finding normality and a settled  mind in what for you will be a frenzied,worrying existence is not the easist thing to achieve.But it is worth the effort trying to understand what works for you in getting there and making the difference on what you can affect and accepting what you cannot.

                                                                                                                                    ldentifying friends and foes helped me ,Cancer,its effects on my body and mind were the obvious enemies, friends, family and medical staff were the friends. After that it gets a little more hazy,chemo is your friend, but it can feel like your worst horror. Your best friend  and supporter that is all too often overlooked is your own mind. Most of what has happened is out of your control and you can do little to change what has been, like the results of an upcoming scan, they will be what they are. What you can affect is how you approach issues, and a relaxed mind with little stress and anxiety will help your body heal in a far greater way than most people can grasp.

                              Its all well and good to talk about it but putting it into practise in another thing, but it is the one overriding thing that you can bring to this issue, if you can see that everything else is assistance then you will be on the way.Your scan results will be what they will be, but your handling of the situation will be what you choose for yourself.

                                                          l am under no illusion that you are not fighting a battle, but a war, and they unfortunately  tend to take a lot longer and need a longer term mindset. Always remember you are not looking down a seemingly never ending disheartening road with no end in sight, but too a welcome services along the way giving you you impetus to go forward to the end of your journey,that comes with the  understanding of positivity

                                                  Having seen my own visitor decamp from my bowel to my liver before the surgeons had chance to do some repairs,resulting in major demolition rather than some decoration as originally envisaged, l quickly realised l had to influence what l could ,as being my best chance forward---so what if scan results are slow in arriving,they will not be any different for my worrying, but my body and mind will be and not for the better.Six years on it has proved to be the best decision l have made

                                                    It is not going to be an easy ask but if you get to acceptance of your position,it will allow your body its best possible chance to heal, and for your focus to shift to your ambitions for your future. l wish you well and hope you can be kind to yourself,

                                                                                                                                  David