Hello xx
Ive recently had cervical cancer, stage 1B1; I was diagnosed at the end of November 2016 and following successful surgery (radical trachelectomy and removal of pelvic lymph nodes) with no need for further treatment I was given the all clear at the end of January this year. Start to finish the whole ordeal lasted 8 weeks.
im physically getting there,healing well and returning to normal functioning (I'll be 6 weeks post op on Monday 20th Feb).
Its just been a whirlwind of the last few months...what I'm finding is that my head is still so full of everything that has happened. It seems to just replay over and over in my head; the scans, the tests, appointments, the discussions with doctors and nurses, my time in hospital on the ward before and after the operation, thoughts that I had, the things I was most frightened about. It's not distressing usually...it does overwhelm me at times and I can get quite emotional...but it is very difficult to switch off and I feel like it's quite distracting just whirring away in the background of all of my thoughts all of the time. I'm pretty sure that its just my mind trying to piece together and make sense of the crazy 8 weeks I've just been through...especially now that I've "stopped" in order to recover from my operation (I carried on going to work and kept "busy" after I was diagnosed). I'm reaching out to local cancer support services which carry a counselling element if I feel that I need this. Perhaps it will help.
im sorry for the ramble! It's helped to write it down. Has anyone else found their mind is completely preoccupied with everything that has has happened,even after the all clear? Xx
