Hi sorry to hear this, could it just  be that it is a delayed reaction from everything that has happened to you!! Try not to be so hard on yourself it is obviously bothering you so just start to make changes now and move on. x

I think the answer is in the question.
You're depressed.
It happens to many of us.
Get help before it gets worse.

Best wishes
Dave

Hello,

I read this and found it very familier.  I am diabetic as well and I ate everything that I shouldn't have right after an operation which (hopefully) got rid of the cancer.  I don't smoke or drink alcohol, but if I did, I would have!   It was at Christmas (my op was in December 15) so it was easy.  I was angry with myself as well - here I was, after going through all that, harming myself.  Once I realised what I was doing, I tried to work out why.  Part of me was delighted to be putting on weight as that was a proof that I didn't have cancer (of course, it's not always true!).  Part of me just wanted to let go of everything for a bit.  And part of me was very low in mood.  The next bit is to do something about it.  Understanding it is one thing, but doing something about it was another.   I am managing to start to get control of things, but the low mood is still there and I cry a lot (which isn't like me).   Coming here was part of trying to deal with the way I was feeling, so I hope we both find a pathway out of this.

Don't be too tough on yourself, youv'e been through a lot of tough stuff.  Start to be kind to yourself.

Thanks so much for your reply,Suzanne, it really resonates with me. Every morning I have the best of intentions but they fade away pretty quickly. I know that the only person who can tackle this is me, but I'm finding it hard to believe I'm worth it, or that the cancer isn't going to return. Thanks again for your thoughts-at least I don't feel so alone. X

Thanks, Sue-I'm just desperate to move on, but I can't seem to get motivated...x