Hello, Roz, I am so pleased that you have managed to make some progress with your doctors, and hope they can find a way to help you and ease your pain.

As we have all said, you are never a bother, just keep posting on here whenever you need to, it does help to talk it all out - that's why we all joined!  

Good luck!

Love Hazel x

Hi everyone thanks so much didn't have much luck with the doctor today however I have a appointment with my blood doctor tomorrow maybe I will have better luck, maybe he will have an answer to why  I'm throwing blood clots. I think I'm losing it talking to you guys is the only way I can't control myself it's like I'm about to stop everything myself if no one will help me I have no other way out,I have asked many doctors just to remove my left side but they act as if don't hear me,so I'm starting to think it's up to me to stop the pain however if I do do you think it it would be mean of me besides I not needed around anymore no one cares, I'm just taking up space on earth, I know I sound crazy but I can't beat the pain, I no no one would understand so maybe I should be a cold case.look I don't want to be a pain to anyone so please forgive me. I living with something I can't handle thanks guys you are all the Best.please don't think ill of me but I don't know what to do anymore. You guys on here are the best my God bless you with everything you may stand in need of thanks so much it's like have a family with you guys, you may not believe me but you guys have captured my heart and I feel a great love for you all you all are like having someone that really care thanks a million and i care you all to heaven and back. Please wish me the best with my doctor appointment tomorrow again thanks for your time and understanding. Forever roz

Hi, Roz, I'm so sorry that you are feeling so bad - it makes you feel helpless, doesn't it.  I, too, have days when the pain and helplessness are terrible and I cry and yell (mainly at my poor boxer dog).  please believe that you will get the help you desperately need and hang in there, we are all with you in spirit,

I will be thinking of you at your appointment and praying you get some answers and help. Come back and let us know how you get on. x

Oh, Roz, please hang on, don't do anything to yourself.  Please think of your grandchildren, you say you live for them and I am sure they care very much for you as well. Also, we on here care about you, although, sadly, we can't actually help with your pain.  I'm praying that your appointment tomorrow will help, in the meantime my love and thoughts are with you.

Hazel x