Hi rozhines,

Firstly welcome to the forum. As you'll see from the time, like you, I find sleep tricky. But probably not for the same reasons as you. 

Do you have a close, trusted friend you could chat to about your worries? 

Another option I've chosen in the past, is to write down all my concerns and fears - somehow, once they've been put down on paper, and I can consider each worry, the mental fog becomes a little clearer. 

Please keep coming back to us, we'll try to support you.  Jo x

Hi, yes, as Jo says, sleep is not easy and can make everything seem so much worse.

I do find thst people do want to talk about whatis going on with them but just cant make that first move.  Perhaps if you could just try to start a conversation with your son in law it may open a floodgate.

If you feel able, tell us a little more about yourself, there are wonderful people on here who will help and listen.

Hello, ros, as Pauline says, please let us know a bit more about yourself if you can.  I have read your introduction page and am wondering why you are in so much pain, have you been in touch with your hospital about this?  Do you have an assigned breast care nurse there who could help, most of us with any form of cancer do, and I have found mine to be a real gem, also the hospital Macmillan nurse.

Thinking of you, take care.

Hazel x

Hi Hazel thanks so much for your reply I lived in the DFW area during my cancer and it was explained to me why the pain I lost 1kidney have most of my left side is damage that can't be repaired my heart is damaged I moved from there to Houston and it like a nightmare, my reason for staying is my grandkids love the school I live for them.I keep praying that some doctor here will help so far nothing thanks and for your reply I never before spoke on cancer so afraid people would think of me as a complainer thanks for your reply roz

Hi Roz, I'm so sorry for all you have gone through.  Never worry that you are complaining, darling, this site is here for us all to offload how we are feeling and to try and help each other.  I live in the UK so I don't really know what to suggest for you to help your pain, unfortunately.  I'm hoping there will be someone on the forum who can help in some way, meanwhile any time you need to talk on here please do.

Sending you my love and best wishes, Hazel x

Hi Pauline4 thanks so much for your reply, I don't talk much about cancer because I'm afraid, maybe that's my son n law thoughts his mom died from cancer.I lost my daughter at age29 I lost between 2014-2015 5 family to cancer, am afraid to talk about it this is my first time speaking like this to someone and already I'm crying.when I was in the DFW area where I was treated it was different I lost a kidney,broken leg,damaged whole left side is affected due to treatments.I'm from Houston and after the death of my daughter I moved to Pasadena on the out side of Houston but find a good doctor is like finding a needle in the hay stack. Again thanks. I hope it don't seem that I complaining forgive if so thanks again roz

Hi Roz, 

You're among friends now, so please offload to us as little or as much you'd like to. 

You've been through so much, hopefully, we can support you , Jo xx

Hi meerkat @65 it me Roz sorry just need to unload a bit more please I don't want to be a bother,went to my heart doctor yesterday, after the cancer treatments my heart was damage, so did I lose a kindney, and left leg damage, my heart doctor says my heart have a slow drip on the side but it was no problem to live as long as I keep under a heart doctor care he also found out that I have something wrong with my lungs and all again it's having to do with the cancer treatments, I will see another doctor to my first time to see him wish me luck.I glad I have the same heart doctor for 18 years ago.all the other are new so he's sending me to a lung doctor he knows hope it work please let me know if starting to be bother promise I will understand but again thank each time I speak it like a stone has been removed a little lighter thanks so much to heaven and back roz 

Roz, I am so glad you're back to unload  some more. 

I hope you are reassured by your heart doctor explaining that as long as you are under their care, there shouldn't be any problems. 

I wish you luck meeting your new doctor and again, I would feel reassured that you are being sent to a lung doctor that he knows. 

You are definitely not being a bother on the forum and I'm so pleased that the effect of offloading is helping you to feel lighter - the forum has certainly helped me in that way over the 2 plus years I've been coming on here and sharing my worries.

Keep in touch amd let us know how your new appointment goes. 

Take care, and chat soon , Jo xx