Hi scruffy

You have been through a lot of grief in your life and I think you are entitled to scream and shout and be tearful, yes this is very normal. We all react differently as cancer unearths deep emotions. You may well be depressed and with good reason. Many of us here will have been depressed as a direct result of having cancer and it has many different symptoms. The good news is that it can be treated, make an appointment with your GP, if you are suffering from depression, they may refer your for Cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT), dont turn down the offer, this is really good as it gets you to understand why you feel like you do and how to overcome those negative feelings You may be prescribed a short course of anti depressants again dont turn down the offer. As you improve you may stop shouting at your husband who in turn will be more able to support you. Cancer has just as much emotional effect on your loved ones as it does on you. Hope this helps. Kim

Hello scruffy,

My goodness, you have been through the mill, you poor girl.  Do you think perhaps that your depression stems from you worrying that the cancer might return?  I know that's always somewhere on my mind, having had it three times now - I'm sure many others feel the same.  Also, dealing with it on your own every time may now be coming out, even after all these years. However strong we may feel, these things can bury themselves in our subconscious and surface years later.  Please do see your GP as soon as possible, as Kim says.

Wishing you all the very best, God bless.

Hazel xxx