Diagnosed with melanoma spread to liver therefore stage 4 and incurable July24. My immunotherapy coming to an end and through my treatment my tumourcdid not shrink but I was still glad it wasn't getting bigger. I was so happy to be alive and apart from extreme fatigue which meant I could no longer work I was coping well. 2 weeks ago I had the shock of my life I was sent for. PET scan and although my tumourcstill there it isn't cancer it is now like a water blister/ cyst. So for now I have been told no cancer showing and I have complete response to treatment. The first week I was numb and couldn't believe it. Now I feel so strange as if the cancer was my new identity and thats been taken away from me. Who am I now? I am still a shell of the person I once was do lots of people feel like this. Im so confused and feel so ungrateful. Also it was a comfort thinking g I would pass before my husband and now im worrying about him going before me cos I couldn't cope with that. My treatment has left me with addisins disease aswell which doesnt help as stress is amplified with this condition and exhaustion follows...
