I am a cancer survivor since 2022, I know I should be grateful and I am, very much but... I live in fear... I love anxious, what of it's coming back? Any pain and ache are another episode of meltdown. And the thought that you are in forever debt with life is always present. Am I allowed to live normally? Am I allowed to refuse anything? Am I allowed to say no? Am I allowed to feel down when all I could feel is being grateful. I question everything and anything. I would like to know if someone else feels like this. Depressed after surviving. Sometimes I think I'm crazy for thinking like this.

Thank you and wishing you all the best