I know this feeling - and feel exactly the same.

I can't fault the care, urgency and attention I got while I was having treatment, it was second to none. However the psychological aftercare for people who have experienced cancer is non-existent.

No one really understands unless they've been there. My heart goes out to you. Have you tried asking for counselling from Macmillan? Breast Cancer Now have a Someone Like Me service where they put you in touch with someone who has had a similar history. I used that and it really helped. 

Thank you 

I will definitely look into that x

I had the most amazing care but agree that now I'm lost and don't no what to do

The biggest problem I have is unless you have been thou it you have no idea how it leaves you feeling x

Botwinkle 

I also went through this July 22 

have you had a holiday after everything ended , I went on holiday after I was finished tgere needs to be a full stop I found this by going to Spain in January 

hun actually in Spain again now I found this deffo helped massive try and have a break away worked wonders for me 

big hugs love Lara ️

Breast cancer now have courses you may find helpful. Maybe the 'moving forward' course x

I had a week in Egypt when my radio finished  in feb. Which was lovely 

Its the back at work I'm struggling with... just feel my life will never be the same agsin :-(

Thank you 

I'll look into that ️

Hello my dear, I know too well what u are feeling. I wrote a piece you commented on last year. It's so so difficult and yes we are never truely the same again.

I went back to work really soon well I started chemo January 22 and started working from home when I was well in February then went back full time in July  after finishing radiotherapy in June. Everyone was very welcoming and supportive but I have to say it didn't take long before everybody had forgot what I'd been through and expected the normal person to be present everyday. 
I am a manager in the nhs so you would think they understand but that is so far from the truth. Anyway, what I can say is we will have down days that is natural and we will have good days, I have learnt that we need to understand how people see and interact with us as much as what we expect from them. We have to understand that they  havnt been through what we have and really have no idea but equally they want to carry on life as normal so it becomes a battle of what they expect from us and what we expect from them.

I don't want pitty  I just want people to realise that when I say Im Knackered it's a very different knackered to theirs when they feel it. When I say I feel down again it's different to when they feel down, mine is because I am absolutely scared to death that this will come back and end my life, not down because I have too much to do or have too much to do as a mother. It's very different for me now.

on the bright side I struggle but I don't intend to lie down and give in. I'm gonna give this life thing a run for it's money and enjoy whatever I can whenever I can.

so chin up lovely we need to make it better, coz no one else will xxxxx