Hi

I was diagnosed in 2016, I've just come to the end of yearly mammograms and I am now back to the regular  three yearly screening programme. In some ways it is a relief- to be back to 'normal' but yes- there's always anxiety. I really wish I had some coping skills to give but I don't. I sometimes think that the anxiety will  last as long as the physical scars - only wish it was as easy to live with.

Hope all goes well,  

I really don't think the fear will ever go....  but you've done 8 years... 8 years !!  What gets me through a day is hoping I get 8 years and more and I have very many friends and family that haven't had that.  So i try feel grateful and take the cards I am dealt.   I know that's very hard but try to be strong and positive.  Enjoy every day x

Hi jall 

hope you feeling better sorry to ask but saw your thread I had cancer in June waiting on oncotyoe did you have chemo on a score of 32 or did you have chemo first before op or skip it I'm waiting for my Onco to come back x 

Hi LaraJ

Thanks for your reply. I'm still waiting for my mammogram results - at least the post has been today which means I can relax a bit until Tuesday! Then it's the wobbly legs again! 
I chose not to have chemotherapy - it was recommended due to my Oncotype result, but my oncologist was very understanding and said it was my choice. I think the difference  chemo would have made for chance of recurrence was 4%. My tumour was tiny ( 9mm) and only one lymph node was affected so I think the oncologist was really suprised that I had a score that high. The tumour was strongly oestrogen and progesterone positive, and I am taking Anastrozole for 10 years - just 2 more to go go hopefully. I also had 20 sessions of radiotherapy which wasn't too bad. The chemotherapy is such a personal choice - I realise that most women with such a high score would opt for it. Had I been younger ( I was 59 when I was diagnosed) I would probably have made a different choice. 
I hope your treatment has gone well - do let me know how you get on with the oncotype test. It's so horrible waiting for results isn't it! 

Jxx

Hi wyll

Thanks so much for your reply. 
I'm still waiting!! A bit of a respite now as no post until Tuesday
You are right - it is good to be back to "normal" and most of the time I don't think about it. I suppose it's just fear of being back to square one when you are feeling so well. 
I do hope it works out well for you - I suppose the fear is just something we have to cope with!! I'm trying really hard to be positive!!

Jxx

Jal 

thabks so much for coming back to me , mine was small to so I'm hoping score be low , I'm 48 don't want chemo to be honest if it's just over rather than like over 50 I don't think I will do chemo either xx