Hi I've now had five occ health assessments, an Access to Work assessment and report back I organized myself, and now face my third meet with the line manager and her manager who seem unconvinced I am capable of returning to my job. I feel really hacked off, I've complied with all they have asked of me, volunteered to be furloughed during lockdown but they didn't take me up on it, and worked remotely as I was in shielding group. My work in that job is seasonal, university terms, and I have disabilities that predate cancer, but the exemestane hormone blockers have made my arthritic hands really painful. I need orthotics in my shoes from the hospital and have joint replacements in both hips, and fusions due to arthritic joints in my feet and ankle. My breast cancer scars make carrying equipment in a backpack impractical and painful. Access to work would pay for travel to from and between worksites, as my job is peripatetic depending on where the student is in a lecture around different city sites, I have asked for a union rep at the next meeting, but find the whole process really is grinding me down, 2 managers and a woman who used to allocate my work and who knew me and that I was good at my job left while I was off, and the new managers don't really know me, and I've lost trust in them. Also, the pay is not impressive, and at 63 and already ill-health retired from a career as a social work professional and trainer, I'm at a loss to know what else to do. I have another occasional job at the same place, on better pay, that I love, and it is on an "as and when needed and if I'm free", sort of basis. I've asked for union back up for the next meeting, but don't know if I can face them dragging over my medical history again, The last occ health woman announced I appeared depressed, Hardly any bloody wonder after 16 months in shielding and two lots of cancer-related surgery and reconstruction and only going out for medical appointments over 16 months.  Anyway, rant over, but has anyone else survived this? If it wasn't for the support of the breast care team and the Macmillan counselor I think I would probably have resigned, but I daren't do that because if I go down, I go down fighting for some sort of severance settlement. would love to know how others have fared.Is there working life after being sicked off?