I finished my chemo at the beginning of June and now I've got a full head of hair! I was sooo looking forward to ditching the wig and booked a hair appointment at the end of October to get it coloured and styled. Now, though, I'm getting cold feet about unveiling my new look. It's still very short, mousy brown with tiny flecks of grey and because I have a large forehead and I feel so chubby since putting on so much weight while I've been ill, I just hate how I look - I wish my hair would grow! I never thought that I would want to stay wearing my wig but I feel so unfeminine, I'm not sure I'm ready for that leap yet. Has anyone ever felt like me? I feel so bad for feeling this way when some others have more harder times to go through with their illness- I am usually so positive but on my darker days, I keep thinking that this is something I will probably have to keep experiencing, time and time again as I keep getting different chemos just to stay alive. Why does such a little thing like hair have to feel so big!
