I feel like a fraud

Back in October 2020 I had a total hysterectomy and discovered that I had cancer in my womb and on my ovaries. As these were removed I am cancer free. The local cancer unit phoned me and said that I did not require chemo or any other treatment as the cancer was not in my blood. Now I have noticed that when people find out that I had cancer they just look at me like I'm lying because I've still got my hair and have not lost weight. My head is totally messed up at the moment I feel that I can not talk to anyone because to look at me you would never say that I had cancer. If it wasn't for the fact that I have to have 3 monthly check ups you would never know. 

  • Hi 

    I completely understand how you are feeling, I had a hysterectomy last week for endometrial cancer and although I have not had my staging back yet the doctors are hopeful that I will need no further treatment and be cancer free ( I am just hoping they are right it'll be a few weeks before I know for sure ) , I too feel very strange about it all, I think just being in hospital for 1 night makes you and possibly others forget it is major surgery and takes a long recovery time, and with a cure so " easily" it almost feels like well you had cancer for a couple of weeks, it's over now get on with your life and forget about it. Yes we are grateful and relieved we don't need further treatment, but it doesn't take away the fear and the heightened sense of the fragility of life, I can't stop thinking about my teenage son and how much he still needs me. I'm pleased I look well but I just keep crying, maybe because it's only been 10 days since my op or maybe because I no longer have ovaries, but I also think that although we are lucky enough to be quickly cured we have been through all the emotions of being told we have cancer and that takes some getting over and we live with the fear of recurrence niggling at the back of our minds. Wherever we are at we need to be kind to ourselves and kind and understanding to others.

    take care xx

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    Totally agree with everything that you have said I had two 3 month check ups everything was good now its every 6 months.  the last check up when they phoned they said" I am phoning to book you in for your cancer check "which hit like a brick and the crying started again. 

    Hope everything is OK with your results take care x

  • Hi Guys I am an adult male 66 years old and need to vent a little .Diagnosed in 20 /20 with Bladder cancer and 2 days later had a tumour removed. Went back for two more checkups and in may this year had two smaller tumours removed . I have mentioned it to friends and family but no body rings me and asks me how I am and I feel like a fraud because I am scared and nobody seems to care or ask how I feel or how I am ..I am lonely with lots of ( friends) and (family) ..

    I feel that if I die I don't want any of the people in my life to come to my funeral!!!!

    if you can't talk to me or visit me whileg up I'm alive don't bother !!!!!!!

    Mike feeling a bit low ...

    Another Bladder scope coming up in September 

    Happy Days !

  • Hi different circumstances but the same end result and I wish you well as you are not alone .... Scared but no one to discuss it with ! I've got the big C does no one care !

    I think not as long as it's not them ! 
    I'm wish you luck in your coping mechanism.

    Mike D