Breast cancer - not so supportive husband! Advise please

Hello There! 

 

I would be grateful for your help and advise. 

 

I am 41 and  was diagnosed of breast cancer with lymph nodes in Feb 2020. I started my chemo in March, I recently finished Chemo, still going on the hormonal therapy infusion. I also had my mastectomy and axillary lymph nodes dissection 3 weeks ago. 

I am now waiting on radiotherapy. 

When I got diagnosed my husband was supportive and good. 

My mum and my niece has come from my home country to help me here. I also have a 6 year old son (just turned 6) 

 

now, I noticed that emotionally he is very unavailable and withdrawn. He comments negatively on petty things and it gets more stressful for me. He doesn't seem grateful that my mum is here helping  and I totally understand that it's our home, he might feel there is too many people.

He relies on my mum and my niece a lot to go shopping, cleaning and he doesn't do much. He took 3 weeks off work to help as well but he barely help, he always sleepy, tired, annoyed and on his tablets most of the times. 

He is on and off with helping. He helped for 2 - 3 days during my op and after

To be honest, I think if a husband want to be helpful, I do not need to ask for help, he should know that for e.g our son needs bathing, put in bed etc..the routine. 

On day 3 or 4 (post op) I bathed my son which was very difficult. His helped was very minim and still is. 

He is a bit of a too laid back husband. I feel very emotional with everything and I dont have any emotional support from him. I have always been the one who do too much here and even go shopping with heavy back prior to my diagnosed, I never took too much noticed about it as I am quite active in everything. 

He seems to be too laid back or lazy. 

Our relationship in this challenging time has take a turn downwards and I am even thinking of the 'd' word, but I think of my son. Even financially I am struggling, he is no help either. I stand independantly financially, I dont ask or get help from him.

Everything we have to pay such as bill, food etc, we go half half. My mum here to help, he doesnt help with that part financially. 

Most of the thing he talks about is saving. I do understand saving  and moving forward is a must but during my battle against cancer, my mind is on getting better. 

If he is not here for me in my low point in life, what is the point? 

Am I expecting too much on him? 

Am I being unreasonable. I do not know what to expect as I have always done things myself. 

I have pain in my body and have to deal with a lot. Even during chemo, I find myself doing so.much. I had very lil rest. 

At the mo, we do not really talk to each other (long explanation)

 

I would be most grateful for your help. 

 

I am really sorry for the long message. 

 

Thank You

 

J

  • Hi mimi

    My mum  was diagnosed with bowel cancer in feb also, initially my dad was really there for her, went to appointments etc, helped her, supported her. She went in for her op and they removed the mass in her small bowel, during her time in hospital my dad didn't call her once. When she returned home she thought that my dad would be more appreciative of her and not take her for granted but this didn't happen, its like she just had a cold and was better now. In his eyes she had cancer they removed it so there's no problem. My mum was incredibly lucky, and it makes her really angry that my dad hasn't supported her, or helped around the house or with my brothers who are 13 and 14. I think this has really made her take a look at her life and realise she deserves much more. She had cancer, things could of been very different and my dad is so blasie about it, he never helped during her recovery and kind of just expected my mum to go back to normal as soon as she came out of hospital. Its made me appreciate my mum so much more and not take for granted that she will always be here and I think she hoped it would be the same for my dad, she is really angry and hurt at the moment.

    Have u tried talking to your husband about how you feel? I've urged my mum to do this with my dad but she hasn't so far. If you don't tell him how you feel he won't no, we women always expect men to pick up on our hints but alot of the times they literally go right over there heads and have no idea how we are feeling. Sit him down and explain how you feel and what you would like from him x

  • Hello Elou67,

     

    Thank you so much for taking time to advise me..

     

    I am.really sorry about your mum's journey with bladder cancer and I am glad she is recovering; she is very lucky. 

    I believe that will make her a stronger woman. 

     

    I have kimda talk but we always end up in argument. I texted him instead of talking but he has stopped talking to me..now we just passed each other, he said not hi or bye etc..

    My mum prepares diner, he eats and thats it.

    He plays a little with our son as he asked his dad to help him with his games. Nothing much. 

     

    I remember over 2 years ago, I was very upset at work and I came to share my pain amd frustration with me as I listened to him when he is low, but for aome reason we end up not talking for 2 days, I don't know why he cannot comprehend emotions as if he is emotionally unaivailable. 

     

    I feel.our relationship is no.more, no sparks nothing. I feel relationship should not be like mine, it should be more understanding and love. 

     

    I am very grateful again for your reply. 

     

    J

  • Hi Mimi,which stage did you have?And it was spread to another sites?

  • Hello Ramo69,

     

    Stage 3a. It spread to my lymph nodes. 

     

     

  • Mimi jai how you feel now,your chemo it was working? How big it was your lump?

  • Hi J 

    I've always thought love, partnership marriage should be if one person is ill the other helps where they can money shouldn't come into it , even if you have other family help he should do his share of things.

    My wife has Alzheimer's and Parkinson's, I'm her official carer, I've been on palative care since Feb 2016 sometimes we struggle but help each other best we can .

    Just keep positive and keep fighting are my main tools.

    Best wishes for the future.

    Billy

  • Hello Ramo69

     

    Im feeling okay, still some body pain after chemo. Pain on the site of the surgery. 

    My emotion is up and now. Chemo removed most of the cancer. The lump was 8.5cm after chemo. It was quite big. 

  • How big it was before chemo?my lump now is 8 cm 

  • Hello Billy, 

     

    Thank You so much for taking time to reply. 

     

    I am really sorry for your wife conditions. 

     

    I am happy to hear when couples help each other as best as they can despite the struggle. 

     

    I keep my faith, fighting and keep strong. 

     

    Sending lots of Divine healing lights to your wife. 

     

    J

  • Hi Ramo69

     

    After chemo, mine was 8.5cm. It was over 9cm before chemo. Most cancer gone after chemo but didnt shrink that much. I had no way out of a mastectomy

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    Best Wishes

     

    J