Hi All
Im a 47 year old male, ex smoker (quit ten years+ ago but used NRT for ages) who was diagnosed with tonsil cancer in may, it has spread to my one lymph node- but the hpv16+ status is apparently a good thing.
Ive just finished my first week of chemo and radio and so far dont have many symptoms (dry mouth and mild discomfort in my neck)
But i know that things are set to get worse, and that the chemo might kill me (infection) that the radio might kill me (infection and necrosis of the jaw) and that even in a best case scenario ill end up with a feeding tube etc
All this scares the life out of me, to the point where i feel almost as if i would trade 'possibly' being cured with all the guaranteed problems and risk of sudden death, for a couple of good years making the most of the time i have.
Added to which i am constantly in fear of covid when i go to the hospital. I see patients and even the odd staff without masks every day i attend radio.
Has anyone considered this option? and how do they deal with family if so? I know how my family would react and it would not be good- but it is my body.
Thanks
