Hi mrs macca. 

I've been uncurable for over 4 years now classed as palliative care. I've prostate Cancer gone to lymph nodes, spine, ribs, pelvis and a lung. Like you just living with my uninvited guest. I'm lucky maybe, I've got to concentrate on looking after my disabled wife she needs 24,/7 care she has Alzheimers and parkinsons plus other problems.

If your struggling you want to talk to your Dr or oncologist or who ever can help you best. 

I've found keep doing things helps best occupy your mind with something other than cancer. 

Good luck whatever you get done certainly hope it helps you. 

Best wishes, Billy