I came down ill being sick every day, had the flu and lost so much weight. Got diagnoised with cancer April 2019 I was quite low and felt depressed, and once I started the treatment in November 2019 it was from the very first day of treatment a symptom would start. I had, flu, phnemonia, chest infections, had my ears blocked for 2 weeks was horrible, hard wax hurt my ears, and it was painful trying to get them out. Colds constant, hot and cold. Itchy all over, mainly buttocks was horrible. So I became a little stressed, tired, became grumpy nearly every day. My fiance was getting a bit annoyed with me as days went on with my moodiness. I said to him I can't help the way I am it's the cancer makes me feel like this. It got to the point where he said I needed to change or it's going to be else otherwise as in over. I tryed my best but only lasted a few days, I was always stressed, cried so much he never knew. He mentioned I need to change quite a lot of times that, it got to the point of me wanted to changed by feeling happy loved, wanted my man to be romantic. This then affected us coz I said I don't like the look of his long hair bearded he is growing, I wanted to find the attraction again Becoz it felt like we was falling apart. I told him I loved him just didn't find the bearded look attractive. For some reason he thinks if u don't find someone attractive u don't love them. We was going to make up in the end coz he shaved it and thing was going to be ok till he ditched me for .valentines with his friends, my son's bday is on valentines so we usually would plan day after. The meal I had planned for us I desided to cook for my self instead since he was not even remotely interested in spending time with me. He never brought me flowers, not even for our anniversary a week before valentines. So now I am where I am getting advice, but to me he sounds like a douche now, I've told him I'l leave coz he always try to tell me to leave the house. I don't want to but don't want to go through an orquid moment and stress on top of wat I feel of him not wanting to leave and picking on me. My ex did that he was abusive and took me 2 months till he finally left. Is he scum, he says the cancer is nothing to do with my moodiness when it is. Got told to ask him if he will go counselling.
