Hi lila you will get fitter slowly it like everything takes time remember you'll still have cemo in your body for a while yet it takes time to clean out completely. Most people on forum find a new normal cemo does change things weather you want it to or not.. Best wishes for your future.......         Billy 

Hi Lila29,

I have 2 more chemo's to go and feel exactly as you do, I'm dreading the tests And let scans ect,

My mind is a hell to me,questions like what if the chemo didn't even touch the cancer, And my mental health has taking the brunt of all this,my body has taking to treatment very good,only have slight pain now and again that paractomal sorts out,so I'm more than greatful for that,but yes with the fear and Anxiety I'm wondering even if I get good news,please God,will I ever get back to some kind of normality,

I'm wishing you the best of luck and virtual hugs,

I'm here if you need to chat,

Angie,x

I was wondering if I was weird to be more nervous about finishing chemotherapy than I was about starting.  

I had my 5th session yesterday and have one more to go at the end of January. I have remained very positve throughout my treatment but as it gets closer to finishing I am starting to feel quite anxious.

My treatment is palliative so it is only intended to shrink the tumours enough to control my symptoms. This leaves me wondering how quickly the tumours will start to grow again once the treatment has finished and if I am just going to end up back in the same state I was in before I started treatment as quickly as I got there. 

Wishing you all the best and fingers crossed that the chemotherapy has worked for you.

Take care

Georgina 

Nobody warns you about the impact on your mental health because you're just so focused on getting through the treatment! At least we know we can chat to each other when times are tough x