Lumpectomy recovery

Today is a month since my diagnosis and I went out to the shops for the first time since my op a week ago, the biggest thing I noticed was the fear of crowds incase I got bumped in my chest. I took to walking behind my husband to feel safe. Strange how we become so aware of one part of our bodies. Last night I had a bit of a melt down crying and feeling really afraid, I try to be positive and upbeat but somedays everything feels overwhelming. 

  • Hiya

    Were you surprised they recommended the full works when your clearances and nodes were clear?  

    My margins were clear, as was my sentinel node and a 2nd node. Unfortunately, it was present in node 3 of 3.  Apparently now i have to decide whether to have a full clearance, which the consultant suggested could be excessive as there might not be any cancer in the  others, or to just have treatment.  I'll need chemo either way.  How am i supposed to decide?!  I'm waiting for an appointment to see the oncologist and hopefully I'll get more of a steer then.  

    Ive had so many texts from people asking how it went - i just want to tell them all I DON'T KNOW AND I DON'T WANT TO KEEP TALKING ABOUT IT! I only want to talk to people that know what it's like at the moment.

    Sigh.

  • Hi

    No I was not surprised about the chemo, when I discovered I was HER2 positive all the information out there indicated I would be offered chemo and as I am considered young for breast cancer (I'm 43 I'll take it ;) ) they dont want to take any chances. My oncologist was lovely explained everything to me and answered all my husbands questions.

    I know what you mean about wanting to talk to people who are going through the same thing, everyone around me has been really kind and sympathetic but they cant really understand how I feel and what I am going through.  They cheered my clear margins and nodes as if it was the end of my treatment when I knew I still have a long road ahead.  I dont feel 100% myself and I dont know if I will anytime soon.  

    But planning my new short haircut so that when my hair does start to fall out it is not soooo scary gives me a chance to be a bit silly.

    Take care of yourself and dont forget we are all in it together :)